falling
I am still a cranky girl with my smiles and loud voice, as well as my laughters.
Just that I may have lost myself..
Just that I may have lost myself..
bubbly
Tuesday, November 18, 2008 7:21 PM
Think anyone would have realised I haven't been in the best of moods these 2 days. Sad thing to say, once Monday was spoilt, I could see the whole week of me sinking into the worse moods ever. And the problem wasn't with anyone else but the closest person to me actually telling me that she feels that she has depression. I received the news in total shock and it took quite sometime for me to react. She told me over lunch, with my little bro by our side somemore. I just continued eating in silence, wondering how I should respond. After I left for school on Monday, I was feeling helpless and upset. SO the first thing I did was to tell my elder bro who said that it is now my responsibility to spend more time with her since he's working already. THIS TOTALLY DIDN'T HELP! In fact, it made me feel even more guilty and helpless.I couldn't wait to go to school, I thought it would make me feel better with the dumb dumbs. Apparently not...Once I reached Dover, I was relieved to see Su Hui and Jia Yu there. I "floated" there and Jia Yu gave me a big hug, this triggered my tears. I don't know why too, but I just didn't stop till we entered the lecture threatre. Maybe it's because I felt so helpless and not knowing what to do, how to respond, how to make my dearest happy again. How to prevent her from sinking further? Thanks to Su Hui & Jia Yu, their counselling made me feel better and view things from a different perspective.
Whole hearted laughter only began when I went to support Annie, Munirah, Su Hui & Hui Ping at the food impulsion today. Annie's as usual hilarious actions made Jia Yu and I laugh while looking at them. I'm sure Su Hui was pissed when I kept saying that she ate so slow. Sorry, Su Hui!
Anyway, sorry peeps for those unpleasant things I said/ actions I did, forgive me...
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