falling
I am still a cranky girl with my smiles and loud voice, as well as my laughters.
Just that I may have lost myself..
Just that I may have lost myself..
bubbly
Saturday, July 25, 2009 12:47 AM
Life can be quite funny sometimes. It will put you off track from where you're heading, only to put you back on the right track at the last minute. It's frustrating, yet entertaining at times.
There can be so many good things around you you might not appreciate now, but you'll only appreciate after you've lost them. And sometimes, even if you've lost them, you don't seem to appreciate them as well.
There're also times when you get lost wherever you are and try hard to find you really are inside. But you're lost and there's no one to give you a helping hand.
Sometimes you try so hard to hide your feelings but your acting skills really sucks and people see through you. This can't be considered bad I guess.
Sometimes you think you're really good but others think otherwise and your confidence is simply crushed instantly. And you find it difficult to pick yourself up again.
Sometimes it's unrealistic to hope that everyone will find you pleasant and all, but when you find people who don't and you try hard to please them, it only drives you crazy.
Sometimes you just hope there's someone by your side but you find there's no one actually.
Sometimes you just wanna give up when you're too tired but you're such a perfectionist you find it difficult to give up too.
Sometimes you're really upset and you hope to find someone who really understands you but you realise there's no one. sms just can't seem to express your feelings at all and that's why you keep stuff to yourself.
Even sometimes, you might just be too confident of yourself and have all high expectations and hopes but when you don't meet your expectations, you suffer such a bad fall and try so hard to pick yourself up again.
The inner "you" and the "you" people know, isn't exactly the same, really... You're just a mess...
BUT
When you get some concern and praises and hugs from people, it's when you know you truly matter to them. It makes you feel important and confident again.
Motivation is the kind of thing which only lasts for a short while. But it's yourself who make motivation possible each time you need it.
The exhaustion, unhappiness accumulated.
Projects drove me up the wall and yet to make my way down yet.
Semestral exams schedule is out and there goes my stress level again.
Aromatherapy, I need you.
Counselling, relaxation, I need you.
MOST IMPORTANTLY, FRIENDS, I NEED YOU SO.
Take my hand, squeeze it and tell me "I'm great" and lead me back on the right path with confidence again.
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