I just finished watching ps: I love you. And it occurred to me what I wanted at the end of the day is for me and my mate to walk down the lavender fields hand in hand, smiling to each other happily and telling each other I still love you even after 50 years of marriage… It sounds totally nice and heartwarming… I’m not too sure if that day would arrive, but if it does, I’ll start counting my lucky stars and tell the person beside me “I love you so much…” Sometimes I get confused on what am I doing exactly in life, because all these stuff I’m doing may not be what I really want…It’s just reality that pushes us to face it and force us to do all these stuff which eventually not be what we actually want. Some people are lucky, they find their goals very early in life and they work towards their dream unrestricted by the surrounding people and reality because everything seems to fit so well in the picture. Others may not be that lucky, searching for happiness for top to bottom, dreaming all kinds of things which will always seem impossible to do…Their parents, family and friends may not be that supportive of them, which makes the going difficult. So they do what the people around them want them to do but only to realize at an old age that enough is enough, it’s time to do something I want to do myself. Make a big u-turn in life and finally live their dreams with the disapproval of their surrounding people who eventually comes to accept it. Then, there is finally the last kind of people… The really unlucky ones…Those who have small dreams or big ones…But they never got to live their dreams in their entire lifetime at all…There may be a lot of factors causing that but I don’t think they’re that unfortunate…Maybe they sacrificed their dreams for something bigger such as the peace and love in the family and to sacrifice their dreams to make others happy…Most wouldn’t find this a fulfilling life, but some would…Because they made an impression in people even though those people don’t know it…They may come to know some day that you have done something that noble for them, it takes time, and it may even be after you leave that they realize how good you were to them…But what matters most, is to be the person you wanna be and not let anything affect you…Persevere when the going gets tough because you’ve got to rmb that you’ll never be alone…

I've got to say I'm one silly old girl who often thinks too much and make herself unhappy for the tiniest reason...Some love me for that, most don't...It's a contradictory thing because it's good that I'm really sensitive but it can be bad because i'm always unhappy...Whatever the case, I want to live my life with no regrets...Even if I've to make a u-turn or be stuck at the dead end, I won't want to regret anything I do from now on...And of course I'll never want to do anything which I'd regret from now on too....I love you people...Those who have unconditionally be beside me....I may not understand you well, but I'm getting to know you... ;)

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