"You've been unnaturally high lately....

what's up with you?"

Good question...

cause,

I've no idea.

I've no idea what's going through my mind lately.

I dropped my phone 6 times just a few days ago, laughing away. freaky me.

Someone said I'm concealing myself, hiding all true feelings within and putting out a mask to show everyone that I'm alright.

Probably, he's right about me.

After all, it is this way when no one would ever find out that I'm actually a crybaby at home.

No one would ever find out I cry when my family raises their voice at me.

No one would ever find out what my heart truly feels.

No one would ever find out how hurt I was during certain times.

No one would ever find out who I truly am...

I think I found what my heart truly desire.

A break from life, a good escape.

And positive things to keep me company so I wouldn't break down one day when I can't take it anymore.

I wish to be that carefree me again.

'Clarine, I've lost you, please come back to me will you?'

I'm calling desperately.

I'm scared I'll crumble one day.