life's a puzzle

2010-10-04T10:00:00.002+08:00

Alas, my results came to me as an early morning message as it did last year. However, unlike the previous years, I didn't leap up in joy. Instead, it took moments for me to register that piece of information into my head and waited for my emotions to come out. But it didn't, in fact, my brain couldn't tell me what emotions to feel and my heart wasn't working as well.

2010-09-14T22:18:00.002+08:00

It's a wonder how perspectives of life changes at any stage of life and the reason why these perspectives changes.

It was a "blank mind" day for me a few days before my exams started. I couldn't concentrate on my modules as I was simply too stressed and determined to excel. I picked up the phone and scrolled down the list, thinking of who I could call who could motivate me.

Jing Mei: My best friend and study pal, but she's too nice a girl to knock some sense into me.

Terence: My first best guy friend ever made in poly, but he's too mean and truthful to me. (The truth hurts you see?)

Jun Xiang: A long lost friend who has always been there, and I think he's the one.

Indeed, through our conversation that night, I saw my flaws in the most beautiful manner. The changes which I've gone through since my sec school till now. It was really brilliant! It has changed my attitude ever since then, because of the word "Awareness".

I call it awareness because I know what role am I playing, what mask am I putting forth to everyone and what I've done so far to make me such a pathetic role now. To think I thought I was a great person, it's far from the truth. It's only the picture I painted for myself.

But now, I've found the path I'm going to take. No more hesitation and simply my determination and attitude bringing me forward in each step I take.

I AM GOING TO DO IT. (:

2010-09-05T00:01:00.003+08:00

Hmm...It's been a long time....Really.

Many things have happened since my absence from this space.

The beginning and the end of my project which took away so much time, confidence as well as brain cells. I have to admit, our standards were just not there at all. Which was why our results were likely to be disappointing. But this is not the time to fret, it's time to buck up instead. It's not the end of the world, it's just a lesson learnt the rather long way. (:

Despite saying this, I find myself rather demoralised and sad that I performed below my own expectations of myself. It's good and bad finding out that you're just not that best performer because there're so many other competitors who have done so much better than you. Anyway, it's a lesson learnt and a time for reflection for myself. Maybe I've been too negligent in my work, definitely I've a long way to go to improve myself.

Small efforts go a long way, so I shall then start today. (:

Buck up and look forward. The past is the past, and it's no point looking back anymore. What truly matters is the future achievement...

2010-06-27T16:52:00.002+08:00

Yeah, tell me about it...I've not been updating my blog because I was busy being a "pirate" on tumblr and my own stuffs. I think I'm busy, but I dunno what exactly am I busy with either.

Sometimes life just pushes you to the verge and makes you want to break down, but you know very well you can't...

You got to stay strong to deceive yourself and think that you can hang on.

But actually, what's happening is your chest aching and your mind is confused and you've completely no idea how your life is going to lead to....

I hate this feeling I have now...Being so unsure of myself and not knowing what to do at all..

*a big sad witchy face*

Ignoring the fact that my life has its good sides, it's often the flip sides of my life which triumphs and make me all sad over again...

Disappointment from the people around me, I've to face that on my own...

No one can help no matter how much they want to...

People change, yes, they do...

Because change is the only constant and that's a fact none of us can deny.

It's just a matter of how much they change and how they've changed.

On the positive note, I love my mum and dad...They've been great accompanying me to shopping at Haji Lane yesterday and actually paying for my shopping too!

I could never find any parents better than them. *loves*

I guess the only people who really matter to me are them and my family.

Not forgetting my true friends...

Thanks to all of you, I'm still hanging on to the thorny vines of life with my tiny pinky...

2010-05-31T00:14:00.003+08:00

Haven't been really updating this space lately! A quick update and off I have to go to sleep cause of a promise I made to a special someone! ;)

The delight of eating comes from all these good food I had during this long weekend!

1) Hawker Centre Boiled Soup and Varied dishes which is damn good dinner to me

2) Tissue Prata which is a bit burnt yet a crispy, sweet and delicious breakfast

3) Cherries rock my night! They're so sweet I simply love them ;)

2010-05-21T14:52:00.002+08:00

The road that seems so long is often the one which we travel on.

This is my life.

It's a long road with bumps and humps but in the end, it still brings you to your destination.

I chose this path myself,

and I want to be strong and

overcome the obstacles myself.

I believe in myself,

so please don't doubt me

or worry for me anymore.

My car has broke down once

But I've repaired it

It's ready to move again

Love is hope.

2010-05-21T14:50:00.002+08:00

ijustwishformomentstostopjustlikehowmomentsarecapturedviacameras.

2010-05-20T19:13:00.001+08:00

I never thought anyone would be able to influence me so much till the day I realised that my heart has taken over my mind and I'm crazy over you..

2010-05-17T21:50:00.002+08:00

Yup, I still do believe in things...

My family think that my thoughts are absurd and that they don't exist in real life.

But I want those things to...

The sudden missing of my loved ones...

The sudden realisation that I've been such a silly and insensible girl.

They took a toll on me and I cried as what I always do...

The tears that flowed represented my dashed hopes, my missing pangs and my future dreams.

They say I'm naive because I haven't gone out to the society and see things for my own.

But I wish and sincerely hope that I'd stay that naive even after I venture out on my own.

Being naive just makes me feel that the world could be a better place afterall...

It's what makes me hold on so dearly each time...

It's just an irony.

That I'm missing my grandpa who passed away just before I started school in sec 4.

I didn't miss him that much then...

But now, I wished I had seen him for a longer time,

I wished I had visited him & kept this lonely grandpa company...

2010-05-09T13:09:00.003+08:00

Firstly, HAPPY MAMA'S DAY! :D

My mum hasn't been in good health lately, she's been to scopes recently and she's going to another next Monday. *Cross fingers and praying she's fine*

My mum looks strict and unapproachable on the surface, but she's really not. She's the one who makes my life not so boring at home because of the way she speak to us and joke around. But when she's feeling down/unwell, she's like a volcanic eruption, so sudden and quiet, then POOF! There comes the sparks! :x

Anyway, she's MY PRECIOUS despite my constant complaints of her asking me to do the housework ever so often. :P

I think I take after my mum in many aspects, probably the more negative ones cause I can never measure up to her when it comes to things which have got to do with this house. She's a perfectionist! Anyway, reason why I think I take after her is because she's similar to me, she can laugh things off although she's feeling real bad inside. But I'm not as smart as her and I trust people more easily than she do.

-Toast to my mama! For she's the best MUM I could ever wish for-

Time for some of my photography - the mess on my table :x

I did thought that having boxes would help me organise stuff abit but it turns out useless for me.. :P It used to only house my post-its but it's now more than post-its in this box! hee... :p

Nonetheless,

Toast to this imperfection of mine!

2010-05-07T01:17:00.002+08:00

"You've been unnaturally high lately....

what's up with you?"

Good question...

cause,

I've no idea.

I've no idea what's going through my mind lately.

I dropped my phone 6 times just a few days ago, laughing away. freaky me.

Someone said I'm concealing myself, hiding all true feelings within and putting out a mask to show everyone that I'm alright.

Probably, he's right about me.

After all, it is this way when no one would ever find out that I'm actually a crybaby at home.

No one would ever find out I cry when my family raises their voice at me.

No one would ever find out what my heart truly feels.

No one would ever find out how hurt I was during certain times.

No one would ever find out who I truly am...

I think I found what my heart truly desire.

A break from life, a good escape.

And positive things to keep me company so I wouldn't break down one day when I can't take it anymore.

I wish to be that carefree me again.

'Clarine, I've lost you, please come back to me will you?'

I'm calling desperately.

I'm scared I'll crumble one day.

2010-05-02T17:47:00.003+08:00

(If only everyone in this world thinks this way, then probably less feelings would be hurt...)

I've been sitting in front of my FIXED laptop for the past hour and wondering what should I type for this post. :(

I've been quite bad-tempered at home these days, the frustration in school brought back and the confusing feelings I have in me...It makes me feel like I've lost the real ME. Things have changed, my thinking and perception have changed too. I just want a great escape. Where I can just be so carefree once again...

I do wish for such a function to exist in real life.

2010-04-16T00:06:00.002+08:00

Life's a funny thing isn't it?

I was just wondering about how interesting the world is, and how nice my friends are when I suddenly read my best friend's blog...

I was just thinking how funny the world is... All of us "walk" in circles... There're over 6 billion people in this world... It's fate that allowed us to know each other, sincerity which made us friends, and love which made us lovers.

There are always friends we make wherever we go, or at least, that's the case for me. And then one day, you get to see them again and catch up with them although you weren't really close to them when you first met them.

Reason why I'm saying this is because, I've been seeing my primary school school mates around and even secondary school mates often these days. It's cool because I haven't seen them for such a long time and it was surprising because we still could recognise each other! And fate allowed us to meet again! Hahas... :p

I just met my sec sch classmate who has been in the same class and CCA with me for all 4 years today! He's entering Army next week... Hahas...It's the irony because I thought he wouldn't approach me but he did! He called me suddenly and I was surprised to see who was there! It was Benny, before that I also saw Swizzle and Lynette who were my sec 3 & 4 classmates.

Just yesterday, for our weekly badminton sessions, Amanda brought her sec sch friend along and she used to be in the same primary school as me! After that, I met another friend from my primary school, it was a He. And we used to sit the school bus together, bullying the kids sometimes and I'm also always bullied by him. Hahas...

That's why I thought the world was interesting but I think that the world is cruel too. Just as happiness falls, sadness glows in the background. I switched on my laptop earlier to check if my friend replied my email and I went to her blog to take a look if she's back so I could contact her and all. But I ended up facing 2 entries which expressed her disappointment and displeasure with us, her best friends...I don't deny that it was partially my fault for not attempting to contact her while she was overseas doing her internship. Anyone reading the following might think that it's an excuse but I'm telling you it's not... I read her blog and I could see she was having fun in Vietnam so I didn't ask her much because emails weren't our usual form of communication and my msn screwed up on me. Our usual form of communication was thru' the phone cause I love talking to people via the phone, hearing their voices and their emotions rather than msg-ing. I believe I'm not wrong in saying that the phone was meant to be just for calling till sms was invented. That's when expectations of communications grew... I'm sad that she thinks I don't care about her even though I do, maybe I'm not obvious enough about my care and concern or my obvious lack of communications. I do care no matter what because I still treat you as one of us... And the best ones in fact...

-The End-

2010-04-13T23:04:00.002+08:00

I've decided to change the stuff I'll be writing on this blog..I may not be a good writer as yet but I'm hoping to become better at sharing my personal thoughts and feelings. It's similar to writing my own column, but of course, it may not be as interesting as others might expect it to be. So read on if you're interested but maybe refrain from placing too high hopes on me! :) So from now on, besides some happening stuff which I will post up, there'll be some posts which are simply my doodles~ :)

Am going to start doodling now!

Fear is a scary thing.

It destroys confidence so easily. Yet it's able to make one's opponent gain so much from our very own fear.

Why do fear even exist though?

For me, it seems to be the problem of self-confidence.

Maybe it's the family I grew up in, I never get praised often, the high expectations of my parents... Although I meet those expectations, I don't get praised; which I found is typical in most traditional Chinese families. Emotions are rarely shown, tempers flare at the slightest mistakes made, scoldings often ringing in the ears of the child, nagging which continues even when you're a grown up, nice comments hardly said, the honour of having a graduate in the family, the PRIDE.

Take me as an example, I may have done well for my O levels, but I wasn't praised. My parents were definitely happy when I got such good results despite my humble background and the 'kind of effort' they saw me put in. I still remember how disappointed I was when my dad told me, "Claire ah, it doesn't just end here. You'd better work hard in Poly to enter a local uni." The disappointment didn't come from his high hopes, it came from the lack of praises for my efforts. I didn't feel recognised, at all. I expected something simple like "Good job" before he listed out his expectations for me...

Maybe it's just me, the lack of nice comments and praises for me, the preference to be recognised for something good and the hard work I put in, I think it's important to me. The recognition gives you some motivation to do better. I know where my dad is coming from, however, it still makes me feel sad about this issue which even my little brother is facing now...

By now, you realise the thing about families in Singapore especially? You're often blamed for not focusing on your studies when you do badly in exams or even small class tests, instead of being encouraged to do better the next time round. Grades matters a big deal. I don't know but that's probably got to do with the society we live in. With scoldings/ nagging taking the place of encouragement, how do you expect a kid to grow up to be a self-confident individual?

no complaints but I just wish I can be a better, encouraging and patient parent in the future. :)

-THE END-

2010-04-02T23:50:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time..I've been promoted to a full-time "housewife" recently.. That's not such a bad news.. At least I do enjoy doing those stuff.. Hahas.. Anyway, the down side of me has been over and I'm climbing back up again..Thanks to my dearest sisters, my baby and my very own little bro!

Went to Sentosa yesterday and it was a REALLY FUN DAY! (after effects of being cooped up at home for the hols.. :P )

Members present: My dearest JM, Fiona, my little bro and I!

Photos are with Fiona although I did bring my own camera, it was just because I brought uncharged batteries as spare..How clever of me.. -.- Went to the beach where we had a fun and uber bitter-salty time! But the plus point is, according to JM, eating potato chips with our feet in the sea apparently makes your chips saltier and nicer! ;) But the sad thing is, I didn't get as tanned as I wanted to.. The weather was simply too perfect for me to get tanned! There was our sun but it wasn't scorching hot...So despite the sun tanning lotion, I only got slightly tanned..Probably 1 skin tone darker.. :(

Anyway, first time my little brother tagged along in these kind of outings so far away from home and he really enjoyed it so much that he couldn't stop speaking of it! (he's 14 but it seems like he just turned back into an excited 6-year-old boy!) But he kept ganging up with those 2 babes to suan me and bully me... Sad~

First time at Resorts World and it was really memorable! I can still remember clearly the grandeur of the place...It made all of us feel like we were on a tour in a foreign land! It's really nice to be there although the things there are uber expensive! That's partially why the 4 of us were sitting comfortably and enjoying kimchi cup noodles in front of the fountain! ;) Sounds a little pathetic but it was really nice! The water display and the performances there were fantastic! Sitting in those expensive eateries would bring you air-con and comfort but it wouldn't grant you the sight of those fantastic performances put up! :P

Universal Studios one-day pass: Peak = $72, Non-peak = $68

(I so wanna go there...)

on the plus side, I got to meet ald for a brief moment at the start of our day at Sentosa! Hahas..it's also the very first time we got to take a couple shot! :P Not the best shot of the day but I definitely love this photo!

2010-03-24T18:06:00.003+08:00

it's sad to say...the amount of disappointment added up really made my day...freak amount...nice ppl around me are concerned, but why not you? I really don't feel like talking to anyone today, but I'm forced to...Too bad for me but I guess my voice and tone really sounded bad...it's been a long time since i blogged but when i do, why is it always the -ve stuff i get to talk abt?

iwasonceahappygirlandiwonderwhenwillieverfindthatcarefreehappinessbackagain

ihavelostmypreciousifanyoneknowsthatis...

causeimyselfhavenoideawhatiamlookingforanymore

confusioncrossedmypathandwouldneverleaveme.

iwishedloveandabsolutehappinessweretheoneswhowouldneverleaveme

butallthingscomewithaprice-anincrediblepricetopay.

2010-03-24T13:30:00.002+08:00

great... I just failed myself incredibly... everything went worse than expected..the surprise was not even enough to cover up the disapppointment...

No use complaining now, it's just a wake up call for me to strive and work harder for the next sem will be the last and final sem I'll be spending in SP campus, afterwards will be internship... So left with one more sem with books and loads more projects to pull my gpa UP UP & UPS!!!!!!!

For those who did well, (sincerely) congrats! :)

For those who didn't, let's all jia you together and NOT admit defeat YET!!!!

2010-03-04T22:41:00.002+08:00

These are some really outdated pics from CNY which was long past! Hahas...my apologies for my long absence!

I've forgotten when was the last time I took a photo with my female cousins...But I love it whenever we get together like this.

Anyway, ain't this photo cool? I meant our poses! Hahas...

The SP "gang" from the cousins! Hee... :) Hope to meet up with you babes soon!

( Don't you agree? )

It's going into the second week of my holiday now...And I'm just contented staying at home doing nothing but just lazing around... :P Jumping at any opportunity which arises to get myself out of the house and slacking away either in bed or on the sofa with the tv switched on...Well, of course I'm not forgetting the times when I'm asked to do housework but still such times are harder to get I feel...We always get too busy in life to indulge ourselves in pleasures like this...It does not need to be an outing at the beach or a trip to the shopping mall but simply having some time to yourself and a good rest after such a busy time before... Simplicity is cool sometimes. ;)

I'm going to work at the IT fair this hols though! Am totally excited about it! Because it has been sometime since I last worked and I need that extra income to buy an iTouch... >.<>

Waiting to catch Alice in Wonderland too...WT asked but there're clashes with my own schedule... :(

It's been sometime since I last met my besties from sec school and it was great to be able to meet JM, WT & Troy on Monday...Had a nice, noisy night out with them! :))) I wish to be able to enjoy such close ties with my sec sch besties and catch up with my sec sch friends! Which I managed to today, caught up with SenRong, had a good badminton workout with him today... Plus 2 other guys who are going to be SP students, one of them had the combination of Alan Si and Troy from my sec sch...Hahas...It was cool man..

Time for more TV and rest now! Good night peeps! ;) Enjoy your hols!

2010-02-15T10:46:00.002+08:00

Just wanna share something silly which happened to me last night... Think most would laugh after "listening" to my story, but it doesn't matter... LAUGH AWAY THEN! :)))

i was at the temple near my house last night and after praying, we usually use the water from the holy well to wash our faces and hands. This time I decided to wash my slippers thinking maybe after I washed it with the holy water, then I'd be lucky whenever I wore that slippers. The temple floor is marble and it was already slippery because of the dust from the joss sticks and I was having difficulty balancing even before my slippers was wet...(the funny part hasn't come yet...) So after washing my slippers I walked very slowly with my little brother beside me then *poom!* I tripped on a step I didn't notice and landed right on my butt! I was in shock, that's why I didn't get up immediately...And ~~LUCKILY~~ there were few people at the temple at that point of time because EVERYONE THERE WAS STARING AT ME WHO WAS STILL ON THE FLOOR IN AN AWKWARD POSITION! There was an awkward silence as they stared at me while I tried to get up, my little brother was laughing and he told me I fell in the most embarrassing manner which made me want to bury a hole then and hide into it! Though it's not the first time I fell like that, it is always so embarrassing! I don't know whether to laugh or cry then because I think I was damn loud when I fell... :X My butt has a blue-black now... :(( PLUS I just realised MARBLE FLOORING IS SO MUCH HARDER THAN CEMENT! yes, I fell flat on my butt in school where it was cement flooring which is why I can tell the difference! marble leaves a blue-black while cement doesn't! Ald asked why am I so clumsy when I told him, it's a good question but I really don't know the answer to it.... LoL... That's all for now!!! :) Hope you guys and babes had a good laugh after listening to this...Hahas...

PS: One thing I realised about Singaporeans through this awful experience was that they're totally unhelpful! Because I had expected someone to help me up while my butt was hurting badly but no one did, they just stared maybe wondering if I'm alright although I wasn't... :( What a shame...

2010-02-14T17:10:00.003+08:00

I just finished watching ps: I love you. And it occurred to me what I wanted at the end of the day is for me and my mate to walk down the lavender fields hand in hand, smiling to each other happily and telling each other I still love you even after 50 years of marriage… It sounds totally nice and heartwarming… I’m not too sure if that day would arrive, but if it does, I’ll start counting my lucky stars and tell the person beside me “I love you so much…” Sometimes I get confused on what am I doing exactly in life, because all these stuff I’m doing may not be what I really want…It’s just reality that pushes us to face it and force us to do all these stuff which eventually not be what we actually want. Some people are lucky, they find their goals very early in life and they work towards their dream unrestricted by the surrounding people and reality because everything seems to fit so well in the picture. Others may not be that lucky, searching for happiness for top to bottom, dreaming all kinds of things which will always seem impossible to do…Their parents, family and friends may not be that supportive of them, which makes the going difficult. So they do what the people around them want them to do but only to realize at an old age that enough is enough, it’s time to do something I want to do myself. Make a big u-turn in life and finally live their dreams with the disapproval of their surrounding people who eventually comes to accept it. Then, there is finally the last kind of people… The really unlucky ones…Those who have small dreams or big ones…But they never got to live their dreams in their entire lifetime at all…There may be a lot of factors causing that but I don’t think they’re that unfortunate…Maybe they sacrificed their dreams for something bigger such as the peace and love in the family and to sacrifice their dreams to make others happy…Most wouldn’t find this a fulfilling life, but some would…Because they made an impression in people even though those people don’t know it…They may come to know some day that you have done something that noble for them, it takes time, and it may even be after you leave that they realize how good you were to them…But what matters most, is to be the person you wanna be and not let anything affect you…Persevere when the going gets tough because you’ve got to rmb that you’ll never be alone…

I've got to say I'm one silly old girl who often thinks too much and make herself unhappy for the tiniest reason...Some love me for that, most don't...It's a contradictory thing because it's good that I'm really sensitive but it can be bad because i'm always unhappy...Whatever the case, I want to live my life with no regrets...Even if I've to make a u-turn or be stuck at the dead end, I won't want to regret anything I do from now on...And of course I'll never want to do anything which I'd regret from now on too....I love you people...Those who have unconditionally be beside me....I may not understand you well, but I'm getting to know you... ;)

2010-02-11T08:51:00.002+08:00

feeling damn freaking pissed right now, beautiful morning just gone like that...Stupid asshole who wants good feedback to save his "ricebowl" but fuck his students like that doesn't deserve any pity at all! First, he's not understanding TOTALLY! Task - oriented, bitter about -ve feedback from students and most importantly, he's not a good lecturer at all.

Ranting away to my bestie and baby without thinking, I got the best response from both of them! They really made me smile amidst all the anger boiling inside me right now cause he is denying our chance to get marks for presentation.

JM: Stay happy. Think of me and you'll be happy. :) Yes babe, I love you!! You made me smile at the msg man...hee...

Ald: Wtf! I wanna fuck him up also... Hahas, it's as if you're here and you would definitely punch him in the face for doing such stupid things to my group! :P

Need chocolate to perk me up... >.< Wish I can have eclairs now...

2010-02-08T21:18:00.004+08:00

This is so true...I don't think there is a moment when I can stop myself from thinking about you...Thanks for coming all the way down to boon lay and send me to school before my test! hee... :D Can't stop smiling now as I think of this stinky boy! :P

HRIS Lab test is FINALLY OVER!!! Much to my relief as well as disappointment..Failed to answer the last 2 questions which were worth 14 marks in total!!! :((( But come to think of it, it's no point brooding over it, we got to look forward!!!! So here I am studying for my GEMS Test on French tml morning... :) Time to get back to work NOW! CYA! :)

2010-02-07T16:15:00.008+08:00

This is how I interpret life recently...

"Happiness is yours to make when you start thinking about the positive stuff you can get out of what you're doing now, instead of dreading the bad stuff you've got to do now in order to achieve that positive outcome." I want to be happy and stop being the crybaby of my family, despite how much I've always wished that to be, sometimes my wall simply crumbles at the mere speech of my parents... But now, I've my other half who constantly gives me support and I love him so! :p

"Perseverance is the key to survival." I realised that my loved ones are already giving me all the support they can, just a matter of the differences they've in the way they support me. Most of the times I tend to not see that invisible support but now, I'm trying hard to...Time to get positive amidst all tests and exams coming up!!!

"Time is the essence of life." Who doesn't know that? It's just a matter of how you perceive time...I've learnt time can't be bought, so I must learn how to manage my time properly!! Sacrifice is needed here too, unfortunately... :( But I think the more we don't get to meet, the more the yearning grows! :)

"Love: The seed which was planted in the soil of love, constantly needing water and sunlight, (but not forgetting love too!) to keep it growing!" The seed sprouted and blossomed among the storms and draught, it's still going strong and I wish this plant would never wither...;)

should be going back to my work now! My bloody 2 BIG blisters are killing me!!! :((( Luckily my mum know how to not make it burst so that it'll be less painful.. :( all for that starbucks coffee~ ha~

~~Disgusting but yeah, by pricking the blister and squeezing all the liquid out till the blister is dry prevents the blister from breaking which will be even more painful since the wound is bigger!~~

2010-02-05T17:02:00.004+08:00

Had a wonderful Ladies' night with jm and fiona tonight!!! ;) Seriously, we don't get to meet up often and it is the nights like this which makes me desire to meet up like that and chat...It doesn't have to be shopping, need not be even dinner! (Since we were like skipping from places to places eating too much in a night, I put on 1.2 kg after this meal!!! ain't complaining here though...Hee...:p)

It's really nice to know that despite all these stress from school and the faces you meet in school daily, you still have this pillar of support from outside and although they aren't physically there, they're going strong and still make up a significant portion of my life. I love this feeling I'm having now, derived from the heartfelt talks we had just now which was so similar to what we used to have after school during sec sch, now it's even more precious since it's so rare to have these talks...Thanks babes, for giving me a listening ear and sharing all your precious experiences to me! Loves!

Going to SMU tomorrow morning for the HRC Grand Finals, hope it'll be an eye-opener for me since it's going to be quite a big event. Got to wake up early though..That's the flip side..Am sleep deprived and I dun think this situation will improve until the study week comes~ Times flies when you're enjoying it but not when you're disliking the stuff you do now.. :((

All the times I wish I can be with you, I can't and you're drinking yourself silly only to wake up with that sexy hoarse voice the next morning..I'm worried and a little sad because I can't share your woes with you, does that make me a bad gf? :((

Sweet dreams people~ I shall sleep away my night to stop myself from thinking too much..

2010-02-04T08:34:00.006+08:00

Like this style, it's plain and simple but it's really nice!

L ove makes the world goes round... :)
Am learning html codes now and I think I'm getting a hang of it! Hee~ :D I'm like supposed to be doing tutorial now, uncle DC is questioning the class on how he can improve and Kristeen is trying hard to answer his questions but as far as the conversation has proceeded, I can totally tell uncle DC is totally resistant to change! >.< Anyway, stayed up to do FM tutorial till 1 plus last night, keeping Ald company as well because he was feeling the worse..I was feeling a little sad too, cause I felt like I didn't get to help much, luckily Hester was helping me and her advices were damn good... :P

*I totally remembered about Ald's wake up call now, luckily uncle not in class so I could call him immediately! Gosh, his voice is so hoarse... >.<

Got to go for now, guess I might be back tonight... :D

2010-02-03T16:44:00.004+08:00

Figured I should come back into the blogging scene because I realised tumblr and twitter don't really fulfill my ranting needs..Oops! :P

So here I am once again to rant...

Firstly, my screwed up week which begins next week is seriously a killer!!!! )):

Lemme explain in a min~

Monday: HRIS Lab Test

Tuesday: GEMS QUIZ (35%)

Wed: Not that bad, should be spent preparing for subsequent tests

Thursday: T&D Presentation

Friday: UCCD TEST!!!!

Gosh! I'm wondering how am I coping with all these stuff, I've yet to study for the tests and my nervous breakdowns are happening too frequently for my comfort...Not to forget I've 2 reports to hand in and I've yet to start on either... See why I need blogger to fulfill my ranting needs? I'm going crazy, but luckily there's another side of the story... (:

I'm a happy girl now, no longer having to chase behind happiness because I'm happily attached! Much to my friends' surprise, I got back with Ald! And we've been with each other for coming 1 year plus for now and still counting! First question when I got back with him from all my friends who know me well was, "How did you manage to forgive him totally??" But I couldn't reply because I didn't know why either, all I know is that I'm hopelessly in love with him... With him, I lose my self control at times and he makes all my stress and unhappiness go away... I can't get mad at him at all, because he always make me laugh somehow... The flip side: Ald believes my time management is somehow screwed, which SuHui pointed out to me... I so have to start prioritizing my stuffs properly!!!! ))):

Yeah, my to-do list is never empty, and I got to go for now...Got to start on my reports, hope to finish them asap so I can start revising for my tests!!! I believe I can do it!!!! ~~Not...~~

iF i'm rubbish, then you're a rubbish bin because I belong to you just like rubbish belongs in the rubbish bin!

2010-01-16T19:26:00.002+08:00

Why is it so surprising to find that people around me actually do smoke but I don't realize that? Got a shock today and it's really very unexpected..Dun like to talk about it...

Today's mood was relatively good at first, then now it has fallen to the pit...Have a headache which wouldn't go away even though I've slept for so many hours to replenish my lost sleep these past 2 days. Next, someone who was often very strict on me ask, "aren't you going out?" Then I called my besties and arrange the timing to meet them but she started to nag and complain how my personal time occupies so much of my life and why I can't spend sometime to help her with the housework at home... Great~ My mood was totally freakish...

2010-01-10T09:51:00.001+08:00

The natures of wonder through my camera lens...

2010-01-05T21:29:00.002+08:00

Back to the same old hectic lifestyle, just that things are a little more different this time, with a twist of happiness... :D

Dun you think this girl is cute? :)

Hmm, I've been trying my best to change some bad old habits I have and I'm so determined to be organized! :DDD Although, it's difficult, but I'M TRYING! With an organizer and more post-its of course! Hope things will work out better this time round! :D

Busy girl here have to go back to her work...Just a random question but do any of my friends believe I can NOT be that blur and sotong I am now? I believe not many will believe I can Not be the blur sotong I always am... >.<

2010-01-02T16:02:00.004+08:00

Time flies when you don't pay attention to it...Sitting in front of the hairdresser, I wished for a new change in hairstyle but somehow, I wasn't too daring to request to cut my hair real short..So my hair's still the same, probably just drier than it was before I permed my hair...

Back from a faraway land and it's now 2 more days before school starts, as usual, the workload doesn't decrease, in fact, it just got heavier. But for the sake of my dream to enter a local uni, I got to work extra hard, stay positive and keep up my best work even though I'm tired... :D

On the positive note: it's a brand new year and having trimmed my hair, I hope the bad luck will be gone along with those hair on the salon's floor. :)

May a new year represent a new chapter of happiness, achievements and good stuff happening! :DDD

A big THANK YOU to ALL who have been in my 2009 chapter of my life!

Especially my friends who have been always there for me to hear my rantings, I know I've been irritating and most likely too self-centered at times. That's one thing on my new year resolutions though, I gonna change... ;)

There's one thing on my new year resolution most of my friends and acquaintances would probably laugh at if they see it and that is... "I wanna be a QUIET and WELL-MANNERED girl!" Just for once, I'd like to stop being so loud as I usually am..Hahas...People think it's impossible for me, but why not a try?! :D

An Interesting person I got to know recently and she's gonna be my role model in life, be it in future or present! :)))

She's a full-time civil servant, married with 2 kids, pretty and slim. However, she does everything a housewife does at home, cooking, cleaning and taking care of her ever playful kids! She doesn't have a maid to help her and yet, her kids are so cute, independent and obedient! I really admire her ability to juggle her busy career with housewife duties and I'm so gonna take her as my role model and learn from her! :P

And yup! Buck up Clarine!!! Sch's starting!!!!

Back to the same old lecture hall, with the same old bunch of friends who never fail to make me smile...

2009-12-14T19:34:00.002+08:00

I was surprised when I felt surprisingly serene, happy and carefree by sitting at FC6 waiting for Annie's arrival at 7.45am in the morning. I stared out into the distance once in a while, the sky's so beautiful, something I've never seen in SP. Accompanying me was a little brown bird (who left me soon), Jesse McCartney's voice (which after I found out from Annie, were some songs of his really old album) and My Eclipse.

It's been a while since I ever felt such emotions and it really felt so good not having to worry about anything, feeling so at ease with myself...

I've always been the crowd person, feeling happy to have someone to talk to, joke with. But now, I guess my preferences could have changed. The preference of being alone with a book, a hot cuppa and a mp3 with nice, slow, jazzy music...My life suddenly seems like it has straightened out, everything in place...Probably except the part that I've endless projects to do. But that's a about it...I wish my life would just stop at this moment with these nice emotions to have. :)

ps: I love the morning skies, those around 6-7am, with white puffy clouds and some sunlight which makes the skies a darker but perfect hue of blue... :)

2009-12-06T20:34:00.003+08:00

I should be studying for my exams now, and, I am technically, with my notes lying in front of me but the definitions in my T&D notes are simply not going in.

I wish diffusion takes place at this point of time, or rather, I wish I've photogenic memory but it's obviously just wishful thinking of mine...Oh boy...it's times like these that makes me wanna be focused on my studies and not let my mind wander somewhere else, like tv shows but it's simply irresistable...

I don't know what happened to me this semester, as far as I'm trying to push myself forward to strive for good grades again, I'm falling falling and falling backwards. It's not the motivation part, I'm motivated to work hard, probably because of my personality though, but still, my life's still as boring as ever...The thought of just stopping school temporarily crossed my mind, but it's just casual passing even though I know it's starting to mean something when these kind of thoughts wonder past my mind...

Nothing much, I just wanted to blog after having a terrible headache trying to do last minute studying.. I hope all goes well, if not I'm really not sure where can I find the strength to stand back up again. Oh well~

2009-12-04T19:23:00.001+08:00

Life's a freaking piece of shit to me now.

2009-11-30T23:43:00.003+08:00

freaking tired and scared i wish life could just stop for a moment and let me take a breather...but it's useless to even think about this now...all in the name of last minute...mst is just next week and everything seems so scary to me...the stress tt i just lessened a bit by cooking hooked onto me like some invisible rope, it's just tightening around me till i cant breathe and i simply broke down...i'm the guilty one...

2009-11-28T15:27:00.005+08:00

Totally in the mood to blog!!!

Yesterday was a really "fateful" day for me! loves <3

Went to Vivocity in the evening and I saw Mrs Szeto-Pang and her family! Then, after walking around abit, I saw Su Hui with a whole big gang of people! Hahas...She was so surprised to see me there as well! :D

[Special thanks to SuHui for her compliments too! :))) Can't stop smiling thinking about it...hee~]

Anyway today was a really cool day!

On the way to my grandma's house earlier this afternoon, I saw a group of harley davidson riders on their totally cool bikes as well! THEY LOOK SO STYLISH and COOL! [despite their age and sizes of course... ;) ] It was my first time seeing so many harley bikes at one go and they were trailing my dad's car, so my neck was twisted and it seems like we were escorting them all the way! :D

the purr of their engines are just so soothing to the ears... :)

Might be heading down to mount faber and hort park with my family later... ;) Hopefully the lighting conditions allow me to take photos though...and that the weather turns out good... :P

edited 4.25pm: the weather failed me and the trip is cancelled damn...

Loving the weekends so much!!! :DDD

life's just becoming interestingly good for me...

2009-11-26T11:11:00.002+08:00

Back to the blogging scene!

I want to go shopping soon!!!! But MST is round the corner and freaking hell, there's no study week this term and this term is much more hectic than the last. Anyway, am so glad that the reports are all done and handed in. Time to start working! And everything never seems to stop, the work just goes on and on, and it comes in waves, when there's things done, there're always more things coming in... BYE BYE BEAUTY SLEEP. as if I've one to speak of... :)

Thing to look forward to: Friday is public holiday, tml don't need to come to school! :D

Saturday: Gym plus swimming plus studying with JM at home..Hehe...the mess in my room is so... :P

Life's getting boring and will be even worse when my dad goes overseas....

2009-11-10T20:28:00.002+08:00

I love the carefree-ness portrayed in this picture, and I yearn for it too...

Happiness is simply the way you perceive things to be and I got to get back my positivity because it seems that I'm losing it!

Life's been uber busy even before sem 2 started, but I know it's up to me to go manage my time properly and be responsible for what I threw myself into, to stop whining about stuffs and be grateful that I've got the opportunities to participate in such great events. Yeah, I got to keep going and not give up.

Life's not that bad after all, with all those sucky things that happen, there're always other rewards and opportunities which kind of write off those bad things that happen. I realized that today, be it too late or not, I do realize this theory of life.

Lost my HRC doc and ended up being so stressed panicked that the tears just flowed...Lol. Come to think of it, I seem like a crybaby, but again, that's how I'd been since sem 2 started when the stress levels got higher with my many commitments. There're always people around to give me support, and I really do appreciate them. Thank you so much! :D It won't be long before this embarrassing behaviour stops because I'm learning how to stand up and walk again...

Thank you, Terence, Aisyah, DDs, Amanda & the least expected Gabriel and Ms Jacqueline Tan. :)

I love dhrmp2a01!!!

2009-11-03T21:32:00.002+08:00

Yeah, I know, I've been missed!

Hahas...Just suddenly into the blogging mood today but my right shoulder which was injured before is aching like mad...Restricted typing so pictures shall do the job then! :P

FOOD I MADE DURING THE HOLS many weeks ago!!! Cooked everything by myself! ;) I admit, I'm getting good at it! :D

Baked Rice with Curry chicken!

Pork Chop with marinade!

And the sky this morning before I came to school...Beautiful isn't it?

"Life's a climb but the view is great.."

I suppose that's what going to keep me going for the rest of sem 2. :)

2009-10-29T20:30:00.003+08:00

Would like to wish my friend cum sister for 5 years since 2004,

A VERY HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!!

May all your wishes come true babe! And may you succeed in achieving your goals as well. Take cares and I can't wait to see you!!! :D

2 weeks in school has passed! Been thru' many things and I've been thinking a lot since the hols ended, still can't focus on my school stuff yet but am getting there soon~

Things to look forward to this week is that reply from the company for our HR Challenge and JM's birthday celebration tml!!!

there're certain things in life that makes you regret the hell lot...and i need my positivity back!!!

2009-10-19T23:36:00.006+08:00

My blog's very much dead, am starting to laze around at home w/o even bothering to turn on my laptop unless there's something important to do. >.<

First day of school:

Accident prone! 2 scars left on my hands, making it uglier.

Notes and more notes to come! Expensive!!! Am trying to save up as much money now...for some secret reasons..Hee~

Hair's in a mess, still the same as before, when can I get a nice hair style that suits?

After school was much better, dad took the day off because he had to send his car to repair and we met at IMM to have Ajisen Ramen for lunch! :D shopping and walking around after that. First time walking out of Daiso with only 1 purchase in hand.

West Coast Plaza @ what used to be Ginza Plaza - Not much shops there, but it's a damn good place to study at with lots of coffee houses which is damn peaceful and nice to study at! :)

Yeah, I'm starting to think life's starting to get dull. Because I've got no life besides, family, school and friends. that's abt it. 1 word to summarize myself, i'm a "westerner"!

my whole life revolves round the west area of SG and i seldom get to go to town, getting lost on my way to cineleisure is just proof.

+ve thoughts are running dry and reality's sinking in. Life's gonna get better I hope, but when has it ever?

2009-10-15T13:25:00.003+08:00

This holiday have been peaceful yet hectic for me. Things may have went on the wrong track, and sometimes, I, myself finding it to be difficult or almost impossible to stay on the bright note. But, I survived!

I suddenly felt so at ease and peaceful after cleaning up my table making it look real neat and tidy, although I dunno how long it will last looking so tidy, I really think that it's super nice to be working in a neat environment all the time! Threw out many clothes I've been keeping for keep's sake, clothes ranging from those bought in primary school and secondary school! Dunno why I used to like keeping all kinds of stuff, and I just realised that they take up a damn lot of space, so I just started throwing everything out. >.<

I'm addicted to cooking, and I've been trying to cook all kinds of dishes this holiday. The only perks of the day besides starting spring cleaning early, is the time I spend in the kitchen. I'm really starting to wish that I can be a great cook and a natural at it, but fact is, I ain't some natural good cook. *bitter laughter ;)

Finally someone to accompany me for gems, ok, not someone, but some two nice fellas. Gab and Ter, Tues mornings with Intro to French. :)

Terence says I'm showing signs of depression, am I really?

There're really somethings that I feel damn depressed about, and it's as though I dun have a solution to that problem that's taking its toll on me... It isn't that easy to say "I quit"...

2009-09-28T00:07:00.003+08:00

[I so wanna take a break from life and stroll down the beach...]

Pleased with my hair, pleased with my GPA but I'm not pleased about one thing...

My stupid spending habits have made my mum keep away my ATM card...This sucks...This means NO big items purchases anymore!!! :(

Dad also added salt to the wound by saying that I'll have to pay for my year end holiday!

(specified % that is)

Anyway, did spring cleaning today, right shoulder and back hurts like hell... But what to do? That's what I'm tasked to do at home... It's not that bad when you're just in the mood to discharge your anger by using extra force in cleaning those display units. Nonetheless, my efforts were recognised and the nagging about my spending habit stopped almost instantly. :) *ps: it's a forced smile, I'm still quite sore about handing my ATM card out! >.<

Second attempt cooking pasta today! *Half a success I'd say... Sauce wasn't thick enough and the pasta was kinda too blend. But compared to my first effort, this time is really better!!! At least the pasta wasn't overcooked and too dry~ :P

I finally know how tired a housewife can be having to spring clean, mop the floor and cook straight after. Because I did that today, started spring cleaning @ 3pm, ended at 5pm, mopped the floor and started cooking immediately @ 6pm. Tested and proven: These activities causes tiredness, muscle aches, dehydration (exaggeration) and mental burn out.

2009-09-23T17:49:00.002+08:00

I swear that I've not been that Zi Lian before!!! These pics were taken because my friends requested to see my new permed hair...Hee~ Can't say the picture quality is perfect because it was last night when I took those pics! So it's kinda too dark... >.<

So a call to my friends, please comment if I look nice with the new hair style! :D

It took me a year to forget you and you took just a day to get me started all over...

Life's just so full of confusion~

2009-09-22T11:11:00.003+08:00

[ I love this girl to the max! She's pretty! But I ain't a lesbian. :P ]

Went to play pool yesterday with Terence, Kian Tat, Zhi Jie and Seb...Thought my pool skills have improved but it didn't, really... Kian tried to correct my bridging method because he said mine is unstable...Oh well...I did the method taught by them and it felt like I'm learning pool all over again!

Omg...I dun like holidays! Am bored really! Basically because of my strict parents and the constant nagging to get my room packed before I'm allowed to go out... >.<>

PS: the only thing I'm excited about is the results slip and the perming of my hair later on today! :D

edited:

I've got my hair permed!!! Currently not too used to it yet...And that's what making me wonder if it really suits me or not...Anyway, that's not the point, I had been wanting to know how I'd look with permed hair and now I've finally got my wish fulfilled! Hope I really do look nice la! Hee~ :D

2009-09-21T01:11:00.003+08:00

Back from Pulai Springs quite some time back, missed me? Pardon my adrupt disappearance and long lost from the scene but here I am again! The noisy old Clarine, just...Probably even crazier... :P

Poly forum~ Well, the only thing that makes me want it again is those late nights we had revealing the "Ugly Truth" of our own and just chit chatting and laughing our heads off over stupid stuff...That's our own form of entertainment. The second thing I miss and love is the Jacuzzi and the swimming pool, pub and Pool...I still got the tokens by the way... Souvenir! :DDD

Those break out sessions were much too long although our group was great since we got to know each other better and were rather free and bonded since there was no lecturers breathing down our necks ordering us around... Got to thank Mr Ee-lon for that though, he gave us much opportunities to unleash our creativity! :D Cheers~

Anyway, had a rather last minute outing today with those closer recession peeps! :D WAS DARN GOOD I SWEAR! Probably because I was so damn high after movie, crapping and COFFEE!

yes, coffee happens to make me uber high and nonsensical but I just can't live w/o it... :)

YES, THE UGLY TRUTH IS COMICAL AND NICE!!! Hui Yu and I were sitting beside each other in the theatre (seemed like a bad choice) and we were laughing at the tiniest stuff and there were many moments when we just "Are you thinking what I am thinking?" and burst out in gales of laughter! Guess we were the noisiest! But who cares! hee~~~

Dinner at Xin Wang where I had my coffee dose for the day, and that's where things went uber crazy for me! :D Anyway, wouldn't go down into the details...We ALL had fun laughing and chatting, and all these are what really makes me look forward to seeing you babes! And guys of course! :D

[A group shot taken from Jolene's fb, I think it's Mervin who took this shot, Thanks anyway! ]

Love isn't something you can chase after, neither is it something you can run away from.

I've learnt and you should learn it too.

2009-09-12T23:03:00.003+08:00

It had been a busy week previously because of Poly Forum, guessed I pissed a few friends off because of the sms limit I have this month, it's tight and I'm replying selectively. Am really sorry about it though, sorry babes and guys...

Anyway, the sweltering heat is making me dizzy these days and I got tanned! Just after 1 site visit to Tradehub 21 and NTUC hub and I was just out there in the sun for last than 2 hours! Can't imagine how hot the sun was...

Hmm....Pulai Springs! I'm coming!!! :D:D:D

Next Mon - Thurs I'll be at Pulai Springs Malaysia with the poly forum peeps! Been looking forward to this since exam ended and now that it's here, I'm having mixed feelings instead. Partially because we're not exactly there to play even though we intend to, there're still serious work to be done!

Anyway, the pre-forum in school was kind of tiring, we had to do survey in public places on the 3rd day, yes, under the sun... And also we had site visits where I asked "impressive" questions at NTUC hub! Hee~ Finally, it's not dumb qns coming out of my mouth... :P That first dumb qns I had asked, it was on the 2nd day, and I shan't elaborate, those who were around me (Kathe, Benjamin, Kai) @ that point of time would know what and why... oops! >.<

Finally the last day of pre forum ended at 3 and our interview team were running about SP to gather feedback from ANYONE we could find, it was tiring yet fun somehow...Slacked at SPP clubroom while waiting to retrieve our video and wasted time till it was time to get back to LT18a. And when we were back, I was arrowed somehow to get interviewed...

I TOTALLY LOVE THIS DRESSING!!! :)))

[I need to pack for pf now!!! urgh~]

2009-09-06T16:55:00.004+08:00

Wow! IT'S HOLIDAYS, BUT IT IS BORING!

(those close to me will know why but nonetheless, I'll tell...It's warzone packing for me! The challenge is not the packing up of my room, but it's meeting my mum's uber strict expectations, what's neat to me still seems messy to her, uber hard to please right? But well...I still got to do it before I go to Malaysia for my PF on the 14th Sept. >.< )

I wanna go shopping! It's really, seriously, really, very tempting to go shopping now! But I am going to be really busy with PF next week, such that my little bro and friends are complaining that they can't spend time with me, and as usual, my mum is always complaining about me not being home to pack the house. -.-

Anyway, enough of the rantings...

I simply love this kind of style! Something smart casual, and it looks super nice!! :)

Ever since I turned 18, I want to relive my childhood days so much! Hahas...This toy street of London looks cute doesn't it? Ever wondered whether your childlike innocence is still there? I guess all I ever did when I was a child was watching Winne The Pooh on Prime 12, hiding in my mum's wardrobe and "surprising" my dad when he comes home (he always pretended to be surprised even though he wasn't really...). Playing "masak masak", smiling everyday, not needing to worry about my future, always wanting to play and omg, playing on those swings are my loves! (though swings aren't so common in S'pore nowadays because of some black sheeps that make it dangerous to have them in playgrounds) That kind of innocence, carefree days, cuteness and all, it started disappearing around the age of 10 I suppose... I just wish I can be happy and carefree like a kid! :D

Some words of wisdom: You'll never find it when you're looking so hard for it, but just when you least expected it, it's there waiting for you. And that's love.

smile always my friends! it's time you're getting old!

2009-09-01T22:01:00.002+08:00

Woots! The long wait is now over since 1110 hours today! Hahas...Been looking forward for this day since study break started!

Omg..looking forward to more fun, laughter, craze and hyperness in this hols...*hopefully~~~ >.<

[but i highly doubt so since i've got to pack my "warzone", ie: my room since my notes and unwashed clothing are lying all over~ oops! :P]

Anyway, this few days before the pre-forum activities will be spent clearing my room and visiting my grandma, so hopefully the fun will follow after that... :D

Yet to go celebrate my 18th birthday officially!!!

Got to enjoy man~~~

I want the beach, suntan and bikini babes! Btw, isn't this girl cool? I so want her looks and figure! Gonna start my stomach muscles routine again now!!! :D Crunches, yoga poses etc~ :)))

I so wanna buy more nice clothes!!! Aren't these clothes nice??? Omg, love them so much! <3

Went shopping after lunch celebration at Billy Bombers @JP (yes, JP again...), ENJOYED THE MEAL! hahas...Luckily we left Swensens because of their poor customer service (they ignored us when we wanted them to take our orders), if not we wouldn't find out the best value meal at billy bombers! There was 1-for-1 deal unlike Swensens, and there is great choc fondue at half-price! :D Loves~

Shopping after lunch, spotted some nice clothes but didn't look too nice on me, damnit...Itching for a shopping spree soon!!! I just so WANT to change my style! :D I guess my style is close to smart casual...I tend to look nicer tt way... hee~ self-praise is no praise man~~~ But I still wanna say so...need some self-confidence man~ hahas... :)

Love these smart casual clothes! They're simply gorgeous! :D I WANT!!!

YAY! Dun need to wake up early tml! Can sleep "early" and wake up late also!!! WOOTS~ love hols to the max! Am so glad the long modules are finally over!! :D

and

*HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO ALL THOSE TEACHERS AND LECTURERS WHO TAUGHT ME !!!! It's been hard on you... :P *

2009-08-26T16:10:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF! :D It's just a normal day today, as it has been the last few years...But I'm determined to have the time of my life after exams! Clubbing, partying, shopping! Woots~

ps: I've thought it through and thoroughly. I was dumb before, only believing things I wanted to...But now, I'm older by one year and it's time I stop being so stubborn and listen to what others say sometimes...

2009-08-25T12:05:00.004+08:00

Now, one reason why this pic is up is because I thought it looks meaningful...The rage over caviar as an expensive dish and the poor fish eggs are squeezed out of the fish like this "fish tube"! How evil to do such a thing...Oh well~ But this kinda reminds me how exams are squeezing the brain juices out of me NOW! >.<

Nonetheless...

ONE down, 2 more to go~ And I'll be out of the battlefield real soon! HOORAY!!! :D

Looking forward to this Thursday~~~ :D

WT will know why, JM too! Hee~~

2009-08-23T12:51:00.003+08:00

AM SUPER HAPPY AND EXCITED!!! Because exams are coming!!! Dun get me wrong here, because my point of view for this once is that when exams are near, it means holidays is near too! Muahahas~

ps: I think all the studying for the exams had driven me mad... >.<>

Hmm... Something random, is telling someone "hey, you're like some secret agent!" a praise or a -ve comment? Seb thinks that it's a compliment but I think it's just a nicer way of saying "you know too much stuff!" ie: KPO..Hahas...No offence though~

Studying for CBM now...Over-whelmed by the mass benefits and compensation strategies that I wish I could memorise and differentiate them properly during the exams! Nonetheless, I feel scared because I just started studying for this paper on Friday, dun ask why... ;) Anyway, gonna get back to work now! Wish me luck will you? :D

GOOD LUCK TO ALL PEEPS WHO'RE TAKING THEIR EXAMS NOW! As for those* (actually referring to Jun Xiang only! :P ) who're already having their hols, good for you~

When you're stressed, look at this kitten here and you will wish to be as relaxed as her! This is the time when you touch your thumb and index finger and close your eyes gently with your legs crossed in front of you and take in deep breaths~ This is the meditation pose for yoga btw! :)

I love this quote so much! Been emo-ing since the previous Friday because of certain things and fortunately there was JM to cheer me up and wake me up from those stupid thoughts. I'm a happy woman once again! :D

Don't ever waste your time thinking about the -ve aspects of life, because when you think of these -ve aspects, you wasted those moments of happiness in your life!

Thus, I shall await for my happiness to come and not spend time chasing it! :DDD Thanks JM once again! For knocking me out of those stupid thoughts I had! :) Hee~ Silly me...Just wasted 2 days of my happy moments in life! Shit!

2009-08-17T14:36:00.002+08:00

Currently trying to get RWPS done asap...Mum is out and I'm home alone. Stomach is growling but I've no idea what to eat at home... 2 alternatives, cheese burger or korean instant noodles... which? :/

Anyway, it's a week study break for us! But the amount of things to study for don't tally to the time given to study...Yeah, I know, this is last minute studying, oh well~

CBM, PM, BLAW

I wanna do well for the papers!!! Jia you man clarine! you better buck up and start studying now! :D

To all: ALL THE BEST TO YOU Peeps too! :)))

-killer tv is in front of me, cbm notes beside, rc running in safari, su hui live on msn, rwps ppt in another window- wondering how i concentrate, which is why I DONT! :P

ps: kinda cranky these few days, perhaps it's because of the stress level tt's why i'm like that, but those around me would disagree because they think that i'm ALWAYS like that... >.<

2009-08-15T23:38:00.004+08:00

The jigsaw puzzles at JP reminded me of those silly hopes and dreams I used to have not too long ago...It's kinda stupid that I'm still reminded of these kind of things when it's very very obvious my silly hopes and dreams will never realise.

Exams are coming and I really shouldn't be thinking about these kind of things but well...If only I had control over my mind, but now, it's my heart that has control over my mind...

if only time could rewind and my life could take a few steps back, i wouldn't have done some things that i've...but instead of thinking about all these, it's time i think of how i can help myself for now and do things to make up for all times lost. Gonna put in my HEART & SOUL into my studies for now. All unrelated stuff should go into the dustbin or into my memory box NOW! There's no time to waste and I know it very well, it's just a matter of self-discipline.

I must learn to cope with loneliness although it's something i hate. Thanks to seb and hester, plus gabriel (last min) for keeping me company tonight! on msn only though... :)

Looking forward to RWPS at starbucks tml! ^.^

2009-08-13T21:55:00.003+08:00

Feeling really worried and scared about this coming semestral exam, more accurately speaking, I'm more worried about the fact that it will determine if my GPA can remain the same or make it drop or rise. I need more self-confidence I guess, but I'm lacking of it now. Not when I'm left with 1 week to study and having 3 modules to be tested on, 12 chapters each. >.<

On the happier note, I had a really great time on Tuesday! Although I stayed up late the previous night just to rush out my RWPS for submission for plagurism report, I was really happy to have stayed to watch the SB Talentime! :D My first time using a DSLR! DSLR rocks!!! How I wish I could have my own soon... >.<

Shooting is so addictive I think I shot more than 20 pictures per contestant that night, along with the guest performance by Kenny Khoo...

Main sponsors of tt event included Coffee bean but we didn't get to drink it because we were busy shooting...damnit...

nonetheless, still enjoyed the event because I think it's a really rewarding experience! :D an opportunity to upgrade my photography skills!

Thanks to Poo siang who helped me adjust the camera settings before the event, owe him a cup of kopi... >.<>

a pic taken after the event with Janessa, CONGRATS ON GETTING 2nd! Never give up yeah? :)

The skies at my place on a wednesday morning...a really beautiful sight i wish i could capture every morning...

Just some rantings to go~

Life sucks as we all know it, but it sucks even more when you feel bad about yourself with absolutely no good points you can find. i wish for someone to share the joy, sadness and every emotion i have. sadly there isnt anyone at all.

the tormenting days have arrived, or rather, it became a more obvious fact tt exams are coming, the same old feeling of guilt because I've yet to start studying when some ppl around me are. the same fear arises when i think of the possibility tt my gpa will drop and make it hard for me to get into local uni. i really dun have a choice because my dad wont pay for overseas uni for me... seriously, i'm succumbing to stress and i wish i could have some time to relax when i cant really afford to. hell goes with the exams coming.... >.<

2009-08-09T20:31:00.008+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!! I LOVE YOU! <3

Just some time off RWPS for a moment...Feeling reflective, patriotic and really emotional after watching NDP 2009 off my home's tv screen.

It's amazing how Singapore have changed so much and

This is where I really want to call it my home.

Guess for many of us Singapore's birthday might mean a teeny weeny thing to them, however, I feel differently this year.

Singapore had been through so many things that we, the Gen Y people may not know.

The government has done so much for us, making everything so convenient for us that we seem to be taking everything for granted. Mr Lee Kwan Yew and our other pioneers had done so much more than we can ever imagine to bring our country to such great heights and had kept his word to make this place a metropolis.

Kind of making me cherish what I've got now.

Living in Singapore, with the different races coming together in harmony, with the political stability...I just wish these things will never change because it is all these things that make up the Little Red Dot. :)

Looking at the previous NDP parades, the effort that this year's NDP team and committee had put in must be really big!

THANK YOU FOR MAKING NDP'09 SUCH A SUCCESS!!!

I shall make sure this feelings won't fade after the birthday celebration of Singapore, and I'll always feel fortunate and happy for who I am and Where I come from! My future, my home!!!

Anyway, I wish I could be at the NDP this year, it was so grand and fantastic even watching from screen gave me that kind of excitement and happiness and many more emotions!

-I am proud to be a Singaporean even if people do not know Singapore actually exist or even if they do not know where it is because they're just missing out on what a wonderful place Singapore is-

2009-08-06T12:32:00.004+08:00

Life has always been a mystery, full of dark corners and endless surprises. Full of challenges and full of unhappiness at times. It sucks that's the truth.

People always say we reap what we sow. Do we?

Taste the bitterness of the life then the sweetness. Do we?

Overwhelmed with stress from the freaking RWPS report & coming semestral exams, yearbook stuff...Wth. I think my parents are right about me participating in too many events. Besides, I dun feel good about myself, so far, I don't think I did a good job as the head of photography....This sucks because I am feeling damn low and freaking irritated by the lack of info and updates and everything else. I wish to be a responsible leader too....

-Edited-

Things went wrong while cooking dinner all by myself today!! Because normally there's my mum to help.. :(

I couldn't taste the food I cook and everything was in a mess. Luckily the food turned out quite alright because I put in the sauces and salt in by experience. The worst thing was the soup, I wasn't able to multi task well enough to take care of the soup.

So end up, only 3/4 soup left and my dad complained "Why today so little soup?"

I replied: "Because I cook one"

My dad "Next time you should use the bowl to measure how much to cook"

my mum finally... "She forgot all about the soup when she started cooking other things" >.<

Anyway, still stuck with a damn bad flu although I'm not a Swiner!

And THIS IS THE FIRST TIME SO MANY PEOPLE TODAY TELL ME TO NOT TALK!

realised what my weakpoint is... I can't don't talk! :(

Back to Blaw project~

A recent pic I took on that Wed I wore red. :)

2009-08-02T15:35:00.002+08:00

When loneliness invades, even the widest smile can't conquer it. What is she to do when loneliness invades then?

My finger is crashed by a NTUC trolley today, freaking painful! >.<

Things haven't been going really well recently, when can I have a change of luck?

2009-08-01T20:22:00.003+08:00

Been such a long time since I posted...It's eventful week for me and also a busy one... >.<

Mon: Was rushing between project meetings... Collected my SP jacket and red SP tee from clubroom. :D Finally! Hahas...

Tues: Long day with RWPS presentation when Kristeen burst out in gales of laughter half way during presentation, people might think she had gone mad.

But it was actually because we were playing a fool... :P

As for me, it was an eventful time as well - my laptop died half way when I was presenting and we had a commercial break. :)

Wed: SPP event! I was a helper for a photography event at Raffles City Convention Centre! It was a real fun time then!!!

Hehe...Because it was Cleaners Day 2009. LOL~

I was the photo slotting girl - mission is to slot as many photos into the card given asap. Tiring but fun and rewarding because we got to eat teabreak cum dinner for free! Muahahas...

Of course, that caused me to have stitch during yoga. -.-

I was also so tired that I fell asleep while doing the relaxation 'dead man pose' during yoga. :P

Thurs: Had CBM presentation, our presentation was quite cool I guess. Except I suppose I could have done better if I was more confident. Blazers + $ sign sunglasses + formal attire. Photo in FB, tagged by Janice. :)

Fri: HRPRS interview, met with strong competitor, Joey from 02. But it was quite relaxing because I knew 1 interviewer, Kelvin. Hahas...So it went quite well I suppose...Just damn scared that I'll be rejected. :(

Lunch + Shopping with the DDs @ JP.

Am so gonna try the Korean food at Banquet next time!

Kristeen was trying on blazers everywhere but none seems to please her. So she went home with nothing. As for Moo, she had some returns from this trip. ;)

Sat: Grandparents' visit + Anchorpoint.

Visited my grandma and grandpa today and went to Anchorpoint to stock up on my hammies' supplies. Decided to try to bathe them since they're kinda stinky nowadays. So bought the bedding and shampoo + food for them.

Tried shampooing them after I washed their cage today.

Coffee was shivering before I covered her with a warm towel. Oopps! Hope she don't catch a cold! Damn scared she'll fall sick. After all, they're both old & aging. :(

Toffee squeaked and almost bit me several times as I tried to shampoo and massage her...

Hao Xin Mei Hao Bao!

Anyway, managed to get a small amount of shampoo on her only, the wet cloth supposed to clean her up was attacked and torn by her. >.<

Can see how much they dislike water but I'm still determined to make them nice smelling! Hahas.... :P

The pictures of my baby girls - taken before they got wet.

That's all for now! Shall post again soon! :D

Semestral exam and rwps report + ppt next on the hit list. :(

PEC practical on Mon too. Wish me luck! :\

2009-07-26T20:53:00.003+08:00

Went for the opening ceremony of the poly forum yesterday and found myself dressed in inappropriate attire because I THINK I didn't read the email properly and didn't see the "no wearing shorts".

The best thing is my convo with my mum in the morning did include the "You should wear jeans because I think shorts is inappropriate" but I didn't heed her advice.. So ended up being so self-conscious during the event but luckily the in-charge and the principal didn't say anything when they saw me in shorts. :P

Anyway, it was a long day for me. It was tiring to stay seated till after the Q&A session. And after we did, Aisyah, Annie, a few other friends and I were the first to get to the food and I had COFFEE! Finally, I was awake, and sugar rush at the same time. Was super high that Aisyah, Annie, Nabeel and Joanna couldn't stand me anymore. They just couldn't wait to keep my mouth shut and wished I didn't do anymore stupid actions. But Aisyah caught the bug and she made a weird, high-pitched noise and clapped when my number was announced during the groupings. Lol.

Starbucks@ JP with Poo Siang after hanging out at RP awhile. Got to learn quite a lot of photography stuff and my first time using a DSLR to shoot, and also riding in his car. Realised I know too little about photography. So it's time to do some research after my exams!!! :))

Anyway, some pictures I took using my digital camera. Annie, you're in them!!! :D

@RP

@Starbucks. Cool picture of the architecture right? Too bad it isn't taken by me...

But this is taken by me! Hee~

poopy's shoot again. When can I shoot like him? Another 2 more years of experience to go~~~ Or many more...

2009-07-25T00:47:00.005+08:00

Life can be quite funny sometimes. It will put you off track from where you're heading, only to put you back on the right track at the last minute. It's frustrating, yet entertaining at times.

There can be so many good things around you you might not appreciate now, but you'll only appreciate after you've lost them. And sometimes, even if you've lost them, you don't seem to appreciate them as well.

There're also times when you get lost wherever you are and try hard to find you really are inside. But you're lost and there's no one to give you a helping hand.

Sometimes you try so hard to hide your feelings but your acting skills really sucks and people see through you. This can't be considered bad I guess.

Sometimes you think you're really good but others think otherwise and your confidence is simply crushed instantly. And you find it difficult to pick yourself up again.

Sometimes it's unrealistic to hope that everyone will find you pleasant and all, but when you find people who don't and you try hard to please them, it only drives you crazy.

Sometimes you just hope there's someone by your side but you find there's no one actually.

Sometimes you just wanna give up when you're too tired but you're such a perfectionist you find it difficult to give up too.

Sometimes you're really upset and you hope to find someone who really understands you but you realise there's no one. sms just can't seem to express your feelings at all and that's why you keep stuff to yourself.

Even sometimes, you might just be too confident of yourself and have all high expectations and hopes but when you don't meet your expectations, you suffer such a bad fall and try so hard to pick yourself up again.

The inner "you" and the "you" people know, isn't exactly the same, really... You're just a mess...

BUT

When you get some concern and praises and hugs from people, it's when you know you truly matter to them. It makes you feel important and confident again.

Motivation is the kind of thing which only lasts for a short while. But it's yourself who make motivation possible each time you need it.

The exhaustion, unhappiness accumulated.

Projects drove me up the wall and yet to make my way down yet.

Semestral exams schedule is out and there goes my stress level again.

Aromatherapy, I need you.

Counselling, relaxation, I need you.

MOST IMPORTANTLY, FRIENDS, I NEED YOU SO.

Take my hand, squeeze it and tell me "I'm great" and lead me back on the right path with confidence again.

2009-07-22T00:29:00.003+08:00

I feel as if i've no life at all. It's school, home, dinner, project~ It's times like this when I wish for company by my side which I never seem to have...The moral support and all...I feel sad now...Having a terrible headache which I can no longer ignore...Tried not popping Panadol, though I succeeded in this but my headache is still there and it never seems to go off...

Simply put: Life sucks.

2009-07-20T22:20:00.003+08:00

What's the world becoming into? Or rather, what has Singapore becoming into?

I don't think our country is as strong as we used to be...

We're crumpling...Recession, H1N1, Donation scandals...

The once generous Singaporeans are now afraid to donate ever since the NKF scandal was out. Now, even the more trusted Ren Ci is making the same disorder in the society. There're really those people who really need the donations, animals too! But if this thing continues, there'll no longer be any Singaporeans who will donate a single cent anymore. :(

Anyway, enough of the gloomy stuff. At least, today kicked off with a good start! PEC tutorials are starting to get interesting with the actual counseling practical going on and we're all taking turns to be counsellor and client. Realising some problems of our classmates we didn't know in the past. It's amazing to be a counsellor, but at the same time, you can get stressful when you find that you can't help your client at all...The good and bad in life again~~~

OH! And I'm so so so glad I don't need to stay up late tonight to compile my RWPS presentation because we're given more time allowance! So more time to do other things for the time being...Phew~ For the first time, I dare say, I love Ms Oringa. =x

That's about all for today!

TAKE CARES EVERYONE!!!

Realised there're a lot of people in my class coming down with flu and I'm also sick in my stomach. Think Hester too...Omg...dhrmp 2a01 is a virus spreading class!!!

Take more vitamins!!! In the meantime, rest well too!

2009-07-16T09:26:00.003+08:00

Isn't this picture beautiful?

Now my one and only goal is to finish the projects on hand...I need the motivation, and I got it now... :)

Next week's schedule is insane, presentations and report deadlines are like a daily affair and we're so screwed for psychology. :(

I would love to thank those people who gave me support during those days when I was overly stressed and tired!

THANK YOU!!! :)))

WORK HARD AND PLAY HARD!

2009-07-14T23:14:00.003+08:00

Today's really an emotional day...

My dance mate from HYSS sent me the link for the video taken for our SYF'07, the last dance competition I participated before leaving the school. Looking at how my dance instructor shouted at us, it evoked those long lost feelings of mine when I was the one getting scolded. Then, looking through my results for "O" levels, I was reminded how I studied so hard and practiced so hard to have such a great achievement. The results were unbelievable but at least it's a really nice recognition for me because it's something I can be proud of. It serves as a reminder to me to keep up with the good results and strive in poly too! :D

So I shan't give up for my projects now, shall use that kind of attitude to face up to life now... :) i'm gonna be a strong girl from now on~

2009-07-13T22:05:00.002+08:00

See that picture?

Uh huh...That's me. The tension and all rising as the project deadlines drown me with endless things to do and doing a really bad job as a leader for our projects. It's me who take the initiatives, I know it's a plus point for anyone to be initiative, but it's a tiring job too. Just hoping my string won't break, not till next week after the presentation at least...

WELL, TOOK A DAY OFF PROJECTS TO RELIEVE MYSELF FROM SOME STRESS!

But it doesn't seem to be working, in my brain, it's endless reminders to do this and that and trying to attempt too much at once. Sounds familiar..some psycho stuff...Anyway, sorry to my group mates who felt that working with me this time round is bad. Bad work allocation and all. Really sorry...

the plus point of the day :)

Dad took leave to buy durians, so durian feast just now
Cleared up something really important and am feeling good about it now

2009-07-12T17:22:00.003+08:00

As promised, Fish & Co photos updates, along with fun, interesting captions! :D

While waiting for the food....

And when the food is here.... :)

Seafood platter for 2 and new york fish & chips! Super nice! :)))

Digging in to the awfully nice food with a hint of satisfaction~

The jugs of water at the counter, I thought it look nice. :)

And yup, I'm hooked to Fish & Co. It's a Singapore company by the way, bet it's not known to some people. :p

My elder bro again. :)

And finally, the cleaned out plate. :D

A mix of emotions now. I just saw a really wonderful display of affectionate pics of this person I used to have feelings for on Facebook, and it made me wonder...Did I ever win his heart before? I guess not...In fact, I dun think I even exist in his mind from that night onwards...Who cares? I thought I don't, but in fact I do. But thanks to these pics too, I've learnt I've never existed to him. And I shan't give a damn to him now. Getting over things soon, all thanks to the projects keeping me busy now too...

It's only every girls' wish to meet her true love, but sometimes, true love don't even exists...

2009-07-11T17:47:00.003+08:00

Projects are piling up and I suddenly realise how precious time is to me...

Edited at 11.42

You won't believe how blur am I, i just mistook psycho is supposed to be due this coming mon and got myself all stressed up for nothing! Ok, well, not nothing, but it's not so stressful if it's only PMT report that's due next week! :)))

But blogging shall be postphoned till when I've the time to. I'm really starting to appreciate the stress of poly life, because I guess this is what we'll all face in real-life when we're out in the society. >.<

Anyway, Friday was nice! Except for sleeping damn "early". Had my RWPS group mates over at my house to do the tallying of data, and I think our survey was too long and I started to hate the ranking part of my survey, which is actually the majority of the questions!!! Still, glad we managed to finish up before any of us fell asleep. THANKS RWPS PEEPS! :DDD

But before that, went thru' an awfully pain process called "facial" with my mum and met my elder bro who just came back from yet another short business trip for lunch at Fish & Co! :)) Hee...We ordered a few stuff to share and photos will be uploaded next time! :p

2009-07-07T20:46:00.002+08:00

The colours in my life would soon be gone...

the frequent headaches i've been getting, i wonder if i'm alright.

the frequent worries that never failed to bother me, it's so bad i'm often bothered by little things.

the frequent friends who surround me with their laughter and all, i miss them once they're gone.

the frequent stupid thoughts i've at the back of my mind, i wish they're gone.

the frequent reminders that project deadlines are nearing, i wish i could just die on the spot.

poly days been more stressful ever i just wish i dun screw anything up now.

2009-07-06T21:45:00.005+08:00

My new found love, it's damn nice isn't it?

Psycho tutorial was suddenly cancelled this morning, much to my pleasure although I was awoken by Chris' sms at around 6plus in the morning. :D

Managed to catch some sleep till 9.30am, and was messaging the class about the cancellation of the class and fixing project timings in between as well...

MADNESS OF ALL PROJECTS MAN!

Within 3 hours before our Blaw lecture, some of my lovely classmates had 3 project meetings!

I had 2 and it was crazy enough. I dun like project deadlines to be so close to each other man! It makes everyone in the class so tensed up and having sleepless nights in order to rush projects... >.<

After school today, meant to watch Transformers 2 but the damn queue for the movie ticket at JP was until the Singtel shop! I think there're like 100 ppl in that queue la! And mind you, it wasn't at 3 plus, the long queue was there at 11 when I tried to buy in advance... :( So I haven't watch it yet...Gonna give up hope on that, maybe I'm just gonna buy the DVD when it comes out.

So, instead of watching movie, I had to do marketing for my mum, with my laptop. Cooked asparagus for the first time tonight! And surprisingly, it didn't take that long to cook, and just when I thought I might have added too much oyster sauce to it, my mum asked me to add more. Luckily I did listen to her, if not it might be too blend. TOMYAM soup today! Hahas...Love it to the max! But there's one dish I must introduce today!!!

It's the Ritz Apple Durian Strudel! OMG!!!! IT'S DAMN NICE!!! Yearning for more ever since I sank my teeth into the first piece!!! I'm gonna stock up on it man! :DDD

Sorry JM, I just really had to introduce it to you! You'd love it too!

This heavenly strudel is for sale now at JP 1 Atrium, there's a food fair going on there by the way. Not only are there strudels, sausages and many more! Good place to go during long breaks! hahas..I feel like a promoter myself... :P

:D:D:D

2009-07-05T14:09:00.004+08:00

It was the end of MST last Friday and when all thinks that I should be saying "Hooray!", I'm saying "Shit!"

Reason being:

End of MST doesn't mean that we are gonna be damn free. Because the end of MST simply marks the beginning of chiong-ing projects.
End of MST means I gotta pack my room and stay home. >.< *I'm halfway done though, at least my notes are in order :) It's just that pile of laundry I gonna have to hand wash later.
End of MST equals no holidays, while Monday is supposed to be youth day. I feel like skipping school.
End of MST equals school term starts and everything is back to the school mode.

Can't find anymore reasons but I'm still glad MST is over although I think that I wouldn't do well this time round...No more exam stress but here comes the project stress...

END of my Rantings~~~

What a relief!!! :DDD

On the happy note, I was FINALLY AT THE HR AWARDS CEREMONY ON FRIDAY! :D

Got to meet the big shots but I didn't dare talk to them, was busy the whole time there because we had to pack the 650 goodie bags. And the funny part here is when I announced Mrs Loh's sms to the nice people there while we were packing half-way.

ME: "Hey guys! Mrs Loh sent a sms to ask if we have taken our lunch and if we are enjoying ourselves"

"And I told her, yeah, we are 'enjoying' ourselves!"

Enjoying packing the goodie bags~~~ >.<

Overall event was tiring because we were wearing heels and the balls of our feet were aching by the end of the long night...I seriously wonder how those girls look so comfortable even when they wear heels for the whole day man... Need some training here! :P

Some pictures of the day. :)

Never knew Raffles City Convention Centre existed and that it's so grand!

Kris and I, pic quality is bad because lighting was poor although my camera's ISO was set to 1600 already...

Our badges! Made us look like the employees there!

The 2 girls who were emo-ing because there wasn't food... :P

The AYG convention was taking place when we reached, a major event I think, there were reporters. AND I SAW KENDREW'S MODEL FOR THE TORCH LIGHTING! :D

The cute bear in the goodies bag. And this is only a portion of the 650 bags packed, there were more which couldn't be squeezed in!

And that's Kris in her boss-like position! hahas :DDD

Gonna end here to continue packing! Cya soon!

2009-07-01T23:54:00.003+08:00

[A damn nice picture I wish I was in it...]

SHIT! My right shoulder is injured again!!! Happened during yoga today... >.<

Qing Ren's response when I told him about it:

"wthhhhhhh

I thought yoga was supposed to be good for you!"

Hahas...exactly what I thought so too after learning it since mid-sec2...

OF THE MST SO FAR~

BLAW = what subordinate courts? and my marks flew.

HRPRS = 20% of overall grades, my eggs are all in this basket mst.

PMT = no hope.

PEC = I LOVE CHRIS TAI.

CBM = cross fingers + pray extra hard.

Sorry, I went officially crazy after PMT paper today. Kinda high out of the blue and doing weird things. Met Eileen a long lost friend of IT fair and found out she's really in SPP like what WT said. Omg, such a small world!

Carried Xin Yi on my back in the library and when I thought I couldn't make it, I carried her around the bookshelves. :DDD

Sorry to worry Marcus and Poo Siang though, they were scared we would fall when Xin Yi jumped on me. :P

But Xin Yi's strong man! She could piggy back me so well and it's like I was so hesitant at first because I didn't want to be blacklisted from the library. But IT WAS DAMN FUN!!! THANKS XINYI! HAHAS... :DDD

OFF TO STUDYING~~~

AND, I'M SO LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS FRI, not only because of MST, but....

SHRI event at raffles city!!!

WOOTS~ Usherer for the big event and I get to stay to see how it's done and all... :DDD Damn excited abt it... :P

Really off to studying now, wish me lucks! :)

2009-06-29T18:02:00.002+08:00

The frustration and stress I'm getting this MST is really up my neck, the first thing the DD said to me when they saw me today was that

"Clarine, why you look so stressed?"

And when I'm stressed, I look unapproachable and shitty. >.<>

I'm here blogging because I got to have something to calm me down and make me not so stressed up. Miss the days studying in the school's main lib, it was quite productive seriously. Wondered how I concentrate while they cam-whored and talk. :P But SPP study peeps are a fun group of people! :)

Seriously, community events are good to bond the nieghbourhood, but those horrendous speakers blasting at the bottom of the block and the occasional pitch gone wrong by the over-enthusiastic aunties singing karaoke. It's just making my headache worse! :((( someone, SAVE ME!

Something random

17 year old girl: "People around me have found their love, where's mine?"

Mummy: "Patience is a virtue, my dear."

YEAH, this is a crappy dialogue, but I think it's neat!

2009-06-22T21:53:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps!!! Feeling damn happy because my first time cooking without my mum's supervision turned out a success! The rice was cooked except it's a little wet because I added too much water...But the seasoning for the steam salmon and the mushrooms and the cabbage soup was ALL JUST NICE! Not too salty and not too blend! WOOTS~~~ Can't wait to do the next meal on my own tml! Bee Hoon with the finger food, like taiwan sausage and chicken drumlets etc! :DDD

I find my joy in cooking finally...A important knowledge, skill and ability (KSA) to have as a wife next time. :P PMT comes in here, *loud sigh~ I've made little progress with MST revision and it's just next week! OMG~ Pressure is there but it doesn't seem to be helping! Nvm, I shall try my best to CONCENTRATE during this last few days... >.<>

JIA YOU CLARINE, CLARINET, CHLORINE! Better START STUDYING!!! WISHING FOR THE ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE EXTENDED BREAK~~~AHHH~~~~

Anyway, CONCOCTION OF THE DAY!

I mixed the strawberry syrup into my daily cup of coffee and it's surprising nice! :))) So you can try it too! :D End of my blog post today~~~

2009-06-20T20:18:00.005+08:00

Botanic Gardens outing with SPP today, last time I been to that place was definitely in sec sch days with Dr Thurei Singam. >.<

Weather was super hot and sunny, but it was a nice outing because i got to learn quite a lot of stuff and knowing my camera functions and making full use of them. :D Tired, hot and sleepy now but I got to get some revision done before my parents come home, if not I'm gonna get scolded for doing nothing today. :(

Caught Ghosts of Girlfriends' Past with much SPP members at Plaza Singapura and I think it's a great romance comedy and not so much of a chick flick. But it's my first time watching a movie at tt GV threatre and when I said it out in front of Jon, he said that I'm "sua ku". >.<

Luckily Su Hui understands why! :DDD

(And probably those who're closer to me would know why too...)

Anyway, some pics from today. Featuring the male photographers!

And there's always the beautiful female photographers too!

These kids are really cute and innocent! They thought the drain was a pond and they started putting bread in the drain to pretend feeding the fish. :D

the first and most beautiful dog i came across and seriously, those dog owners in Botanic Gardens are a bunch of friendly peeps who allow you to play with their dog, take pics of their dog, and even make the dog do stunts for you to shoot! Cool man! :DDD

Anyway, I've uploaded the other photos on flickr.com, so please feel free to comment and give your critique on my photos. I know I'm only an amateur with limited photography skills, so I'd appreciate if you guys could guide me along! Lots more to learn, so here I am awaiting for the next SPP outing... :P

2009-06-19T14:37:00.006+08:00

Missed me? :D

Back from SMART Training camp on Wednesday, and was totally drained out of all energy although there're people saying that I still look super full of energy on the last day of camp with only an hour of sleep. :P Anyway, skipped yoga lesson because I was seriously too tired~

Only managed to take a picture with WT on the last day of camp...Glad to have another camp with her again after tt SB camp we attended together in year 1. I've learnt my lesson though, seriously should not attend 2 camps together, it's mentally and physically draining, can't rmb names well and was so sleepy during the lectures held for training.

Oh! And I swear that this indian deputy director I just got to know is a TWIN SISTER OF DR THUREI SINGAM!!! OMG...She seriously reminds me of my really freaky english teacher who taught me in sec 1 & 4. Feel like shutting her words out because of all those stupid memories she brings back!!! Argh! Luckily, sen rong and wt agree with me on this matter. And those ugly random stuff i suggested doing to her, were well approved by Aaron aka Chanel and Jun Xian aka Cassandra and Gary aka Candy and Gavin aka Cindy!!! Muahahas... :DDD

Anyway, glad to have went for the 2 camps, really got to know alot of ppl whom I didn't know existed in SP or SB. :D Gained many nicknames too!!! >.<

Chlorine cum chloride

Chanel even suggested that I should find a husband by the name of Sodium.

AND on my way back from SMART camp, I actually saw this guy wearing a shirt with the big "NA" words at his front, Gavin saw it too!!! Hahas..my future husband! make me a more stable substance- NaCl [table salt] >.<

Clarinet

Clarence :(

Turned a guy didn't i?)

Hui Juan Qian

(means I' ll donate cash in chinese)

And finally, there's nth else to add! Hahas...Got to go for now! shall update soon enough, looking forward to SPP outing tml! Gonna catch ghost of girlfriends' past i think...But as usual, my mum is unhappy about me going out and not studying. :(((

*BIG SIGH!

I miss my girlfriends! AND I miss the DD! And....I miss my classmates! Hahas...Think I'm going crazy from studying from MST. *sobs

2009-06-13T22:46:00.006+08:00

BACK FROM SPP CAMP! Seriously the slackest camp i had been to...But also the best camp i've been to!!! Hee~ Got to know great people whom I didn't know existed in SP or SB and also had the best disco night. =p

Night walk was funny and scary too, ended uber "early" and I really could understand what the SB FO campers were thinking when they went thru the route. FASTER GET OUT OF THE ROUTE AND SLEEP! Hahas.. :D First time sleeping on the road before the night walk started, just fell asleep while counting stars. hee~

Disco night was really happening!!! Many things happened literally, but i had the most fun because it was cool having the DJ club over and having the clubbing feel, the high-ness washed over me and i was immediately in clubbing mood! :DDD but they managed to fool me that disco night would not be happening due to some technical problems at first, so i was trying to change my mood when the whole party started! Damn sweaty and sad when the night ended because i simply wanted more dancing...but well, had a nice bath and chat with su hui before going back to the bunk. Thought I'd sleep but i found franscesco and halimah chatting so i joined in as well! Hee~ Nice time there too! :D

Sad when the camp finally ended the next day...

Here're some pics taken at the end of the camp.

group pic of those who stayed for cam-whore!

Ever seen a swinging monkey in SP? NOW YOU DO! and that monkey is none other than poo siang the president of photography club, no wonder there's a monkey in the club room. :D

super wrong pose down there with the guys~~~

SCOFIELDs COMPLETE WITH LEADERS, Francesco and Mutt.. sadly, no sean and keng hwee...

Real unglam shot of me down here with Halimah, this beautiful dancer I've known for about a year! Hahas..think this photo was taken on the 2nd day? forgot... :P

Still suffering from the lack of sleep and hurrying to get back to studies but i can't. because I ended up sleeping instead of studying this afternoon... =( Ahh~ finally done!!!

2009-06-07T15:50:00.004+08:00

Ahh~ Finally some updates, hahas...It has been a busy week previously, with the deadlines of certain projects squeezed in the last week of school but luckily, school holidays has commenced!!! WOOTS!!! You must be thinking school holidays should be the days to enjoy right? BUT! This holiday is a torturous one for me, MST revision ranking no 1 on my to-do list, project meetings ranking 2nd and not forgetting the 2 CCA camps I'm going to. No doubt camps are fun, but they're tiring as well. >.<

Anyway, just bought SIMS 3 on Friday!!! Muahahas~ Got myself addicted to it for the past few days, oops...Was supposed to be studying but I was playing with it as soon as it was installed in my lappie! Took lots of self-discipline and control to start on PMT discussion and some revision here and there~ blehx...Anyway, the new SIMS 3 is real fun, there's the collector's edition which comes along with the special thumbdrive but it costs $72.90! So I settled for the normal version which is the same except for the absence of the thumbdrive, and it costs $54.90! ^.^

But was threatened by my dad to cut my expenses after he found out that I bought it. *sighs~ Imagine what would happen if I were to spend my accumulated savings on a DSLR...

And some photos update coming up SOON! Hee~ Dun complain that my blog is boring with words anymore... :D

A picture taken when I was out with cousins, a uber long time ago, look quite nice in this pic because the pic was photoshop-ed! >.<

And the following are pictures taken with my 2 besties when we were out at Orchard- Wisma!

[JM playing with WT's Iphone, looking absolutely fascinated by it]

[Taken when JM hasn't discovered I was taking random pics while WT has]

AND...

[When she FINALLY discovered...hee~ ain't she cute?]

[Suddenly being very camera-shy~~~]

End of pictures galore, more COMING UP SOON!

And, GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE WHO'S HAVING THEIR TESTS AFTER HOLS!!! STUDY HARD AND REST WELL TOO! <3

2009-06-02T22:46:00.002+08:00

Today was an abnormal day for me. But seriously need to thank and apologise to the DD here. Thank them for being such great friends who gave in to me and being understanding about the sudden mood swing this morning. Apologise because I was too touchy and moody and saying bad stuffs... :(

Today's unusual because this is the first time since term started that I think that Tuesday pass so fast! Maybe because I was kept occupied all the time with project meeting, food and stuffs. :D So my mood changed for the better fortunately!

Had a funny experience in the BizIT library today. Found out that Roy has a potential in photocopier machines and printers! Hahas..Because there were problems printing out our stuff, either paper jam or no paper in tray. So Roy was the one fixing all the problems for those who needed the printer as well! But luckily, our printer job was the 3rd on the list and we were free from that problems soon enough. :)

Finally done with one project, but an endless list to go...Jia you, clarine! hee~looking forward to tml!

2009-05-31T22:17:00.003+08:00

Came back from Amanda's bdae chalet last night with a deep cut and a bruise. Too clumsy for my own good..hahas...Super tired by the time I reached home @ around 12! Anyway,

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY AMANDA!!!

MAY YOU SMILE ALWAYS! =)))

Trip to the friendly hairdresser auntie today with the intention to perm my hair but was asked to wait at least 1 or 2 more months before I can perm because of the length of my hair. Well, so I shall wait.. hahas...Birthday treat maybe... =D JM had her hair done together with me as well, did a treatment for her hair to stay black for the time being. :)

Watched "Camp Rock" on channel 5 just now, interesting show asking us to just be ourselves... Nice theme because human beings can be pretentious at times, when it comes to power, wealth and popularity...

The whole long list of stuff to be done:

1. RWPS Reflection Journal (wondering how is it gonna turn out because i've got a really blur idea what's going on... =( ...)

2. HRPRS submission of the ads and all

3. MST is gonna come and I've got to get started on studying. (that's provided I've got the motivation man...=( studying's never fun)

4. Packing my room during the holidays. >.<>

Wait for the long awaited holidays to come for now~~~ >.<

2009-05-30T09:17:00.001+08:00

It seems almost impossible to forget a person you once loved I realised, woke up from a dream about him and was totally shocked of the content of the dream. Actually dreamt that we got back together and that everything was just a test. And the thing is, I was actually so happy and hoping for that to happen, but it's impossible I know.... :(

2009-05-26T18:48:00.003+08:00

Started off with the lack of motivation to go to school for the day, because was really tired in the morning even though classes starts at 10. =p But finally gave up the thought of skipping lecture and got out of bed...PM lecture ended really early, while PEC lecture was interesting today. Which reminds me, MST dates are out... >.<

Some people may not like it when people play around in lessons or be disobedient once in a while, my sincere apologies, it's my bad but that's what Kris and I were doing...

During our last lesson of the day, holy 3 hours of RWPS, Kris was on Hibernation mode while I was on Standby mode. Switching between the laptop screen and the projector screen in front. Listening all the time, but only some info went in. Mass QUIZ time on facebook, and sometimes paying attention to our tutor.

When we had our first tutorial, our tutor shared her experiences of those cases of students in her class which were funny and bad behaviours. But now, it's my turn to be like one of those students... Not a good girl anymore, busy facebook-ing or doing some other stuff. Applause to those who listened and understood RWPS tutorials, because I find myself getting more tired as the tutorial moves on, the lack of ability to concentrate~

I AM A MIX BETWEEN SANGUINE AND CHOLERIC!

hEE~ *Dun understand what it means? Check out facebook. Hahas...

2009-05-25T01:16:00.004+08:00

Super boring, lifeless, hot and tiring day today!!! Stayed home the whole day, slept till 10plus and woke up for breakfast at home. Blaw tutorial half-way done and the others not done yet...Blaw tutorial last qns is super long and troublesome... :(

Cleaned out my hamsters' cage and wiped the house using magic clean, imagine the back ache I had after that...But it's worth it though, my cute hamsters now have a nice clean house to live in like me!!! :D Hee...

Hols is coming man! Only thing to look forward to this school term, because projects are overwhelming, only consolation from school is just that break before MST. Supposed to be for studying but well...Shall see how then... ;p

Shall play hard and work hard as much as possible!!! Hee... Seems quite unconvincing... :p

Thoughts of buying my hamsters a proper house but I guess I gonna have difficulty finding one which fits both of them in. Cause Coffee is really getting fat now!

Don't this hamster look so angelic? Hope my hamsters are as angelic as it man...But they BITE!

Can you imagine how lazy Coffee is that she can just lie down like that and eat the food I pass to her when she's in a half-awake condition? But it's cute though..Hehe..Toffee doesn't have that genes..She must be on her butt before she can eat.

Although they fight, it's times like this when you see how loving they can be! SISTERS FOREVER!!! :DDD

End of blog post~ off to watch 敗犬女王. :D

2009-05-20T22:23:00.002+08:00

SMART interview today just now.

Conclusion: I get super high when I see the FOC peeps like Noelle and Sebastian there, felt too comfortable for my own good I guess, too noisy for the interview. LOL!

Yoga today was super relaxing that I almost fell asleep during the "dead man's pose".. :p

GEMS wasn't alone because Santhosh came with his friend, Aaron, but they were watching movie right in front of the poor lecturer.

Super random today because I'm just too tired, been staying up for nights for beloved shows to keep my mind, soul and heart occupied, sounds crappy? :P that's what I am!!!

PS: Super happy when this girl from SMART commented that she like my sense of dressing, shocked and super duber happy!!! HEHE!

2009-05-18T22:22:00.003+08:00

Second time I blogged today! Hahas... Must be thinking that I've loads of time to do this that's why...Not really the case though! Just wanna talk about how wonderful it is to be able to laugh so heartily and enjoy a really good variety show during such a dull time in life.

Episode 1:

Talking about the channel 56, "百万小学堂 "

host by: Xiao-Yan Jie

Guest appearance: Ha-lin

Tonight's episode really made me burst out in laughter too often that I just missed not rolling on the floor! The 2 highly experienced host were really having the greatest time on air, making everyone in my family laugh their heads off, imagine that monstrous laugh of my elder bro...omg...but that laughter really made me cheered up and reminded me of those times I had watching the "Love letter" with the Dumb dumbs, really great time laughing at the stupid actions or words they come up with. Haix...Miss those days...

A GOOD LAUGH MAKES EVERY BAD THING IN THE WORLD DISAPPEAR! Woots~

Episode 2:

Wow...Stunned totally by one of seb's statement:

"you haven't really experienced love ba..."

Have I?

Dunno, will only know it when I really meet the right guy!

Love's definition is one too many to talk about, each have differing opinions and there's never a fixed definition. Only someone who has experienced true love can tell you his/her definition, while someone as noob as me will just be stunned and dunno what to reply.

Nonetheless,

LOVE THIS MONDAY SOO MUCH!!! :D:D:D

Ain't looking forward to tml though, the 3-hr RWPS tutorial puts me off. :((( But the good thing is, my laptop has more shows uploaded to keep me entertained! Hehe...Ear plugs in hiding~~~

2009-05-18T11:14:00.003+08:00

Long time since I last updated!!! Not much things to blog about nowadays, school's as boring and stressful as ever with all specialised human resource topics. The sudden realisation of many projects to complete makes me frustrated as well. The only thing to look forward to: Poly Forum which is in like, September? Haix...A long list of rantings to go, but life's just like that isn't it? Things won't always go the way you want it to, and just when you thought you held that thing tightly in your hands, it flies away and disappear into thin air, just like those helium balloons disappearing into the sky.

The best thing I have:

a pair of GREAT sisters

an understanding "Bro"

a bunch of great classmates

and finally,

a nice caring MUM whom I'm starting to think that she's great

It's never easy communicating with someone who's like 40 plus years older than you, but I did that, ever since poly started, the time I hang out with her increased too. I opened up to her because I wanted a great mum and daughter relationship, I should say, it's really great having a mum like her who listens to you, gives her advice and emphatise with you. All my stuff about BGR, friends, class, school and whatever about me was shared with her. AND I'm super glad that she didn't nag or scold me or whatever negative response I used to think she'd give.

Ever since that incident she stayed up with me to finish my project, talked to me about BGR, it's really nice to have someone at home to talk to. It touches me when she foregoes her sleep and talk to me in my room, though there're times she gets nasty, most of the time she's good. I LOVE YOU MUM, and I guess this is a belated Mother's day post, but it's just because this topic came into my mind when blogging, so I decided to share this. Used to think mum's bad because she's super strict on me, but it's recently that she started letting me out with friends and all, partially because of the unhappiness I had been through recently but also because I was super truthful with her, telling her who I'm going out with and the time I'd be back. Guess it's all these that makes a family wonderful.

2009-05-13T15:41:00.002+08:00

原来幸福在手中也可以那么容易的流失，但都无所谓了，因为未来更重要。。。

Thanks for all your concern and your best wishes. I'll stand up soon and be that happy-go-lucky girl i've always been. :)))

2009-05-12T20:37:00.004+08:00

Well, I guess everything's over. The storm brewed and have already calmed down. The raindrops falling will no longer be so salty anymore because I know what the storm is about. Probably the state of denial made me lost in the storm, but the sun is now out and I probably know what the final result is gonna be. I'm gonna live my life like it was before this storm.

Defense mechanism is up again, that's why I am super hyper and cranky these days. But nice mechanism though, it gives me a shield to protect myself...At least, it's something that gave me a place to hide...

is it really all my fault?

2009-05-09T00:49:00.000+08:00

and everything crumbles down again, me thinking too much, and tears flowing freely. why am i crying so much in our 4th month? this honestly sucks.

2009-05-08T20:59:00.003+08:00

Love Fridays because there's only 1 lecture and I'm FREE! So went to Chinatown with my mum because she wanted to check out stainless steel woks, man, WMF woks are heavy! But that's quality man, they're made in Germany.

Thought these pics were taken at the Botanical Gardens? Nah, they were taken during my 'scenic' walk to Outram Park MRT Station! Came as a surprise to me and I just simply took out my camera and started snapping! =)))

The flower buds.

Love the bright coloured flowers, but how come the fruit became such a dull, ugly colour? ;p Looks like potato man, just that it's the enlarged version with a super round body. And yeah!!! My daily dose of coffee at Ya Kun! Was playing around with the angles and the lighting, wondering which one looks nicer, so please feel free to comment even if it sucks! :)

AND....The Good Things For The Last~~~

Ain't these chocs mouth-watering? Bought a whole bag of them!!! Hahas..It's really cheap and good, it's like a dollar a box! And I think the photos look great!!! :D Hope you peeps agree!! ;P

PS: Was playing around with the macro function and the angles to shoot with my camera, thus, the result being: there're photos of the same thing just that they're in different angles and so on and so forth~

Taken with a flash, think this dark chocs look better with a flash, if not it looks so dull coloured just like the one at the bottom, anyway, not only do they look good, they taste damn good too! Combi of biscuits and dark choc. Not too sweet~

Well, that's all for now, till I blog with nice pics again! :)))

2009-05-04T17:10:00.003+08:00

And the badminton games have started!

GO ZHI JIE! ONE MAN SHOW VS ME AND GABRIEL

*(seems quite chicken feet for him though. =p)

And that's Annie & Hui Ping VS Kris & Munirah.

Unfair match because Hui Ping is too tall and she can reach high shuttlecocks so easily! >.<>

That's Munirah preparing to serve. This pair is average I suppose, their playing skills are just on par.

New Game~

Hui Ping & I

Kris & Munirah

Zhi Jie is meditating while we play. On the other side of the court, there's a 1-ON-1 match between Gabriel and Annie. Pity there's no photos of that match...

Personal match between Hui Ping and Annie

Doesn't this pic look like those you'd find in players' profiles?

Hui Ping, 17

1.70m

Advantage: She's really tall and can handle all high shuttlecocks.

Disadvantage: She can't handle drops and she looks like she's cooking when she tries to catch a drop ball. :P

*Kidding yeah? No offence :)

Finally it's 12.45noon and we went to wash up before having lunch at fc3, had my long waited Mushroom Cheese prata. Rocks man! And a cup of Kopi peng, super satisfying meal. :D

That's all for now~

PS: Certainly too many pics taken but I'm lazy to upload all on blogger, so if u want them, just tell me k? I'll send u the pics.

2009-05-03T23:19:00.002+08:00

Nothing much to blog about today, so shall show off a little of the pics taken with my new found love.

And these pics are taken using Macro function.

while i was emptying food into the hamster's food bowl, eager for food and smth to bite, there Coffee is.

Toffee trying to escape via my hand! What a nice escape route~ :p

Cute and innocent Coffee looking at me while i was taking pics of her!

And there she is, sniffing out the treat bar. :D Ain't she cute??? Can see that she's aging though, look at her whiskers, it's getting darker in colour. :( My beautiful bangle!!! Hahas...Love this pic very much because the colour contrast is great, and I was exploring with the camera I just got my hands on. Love it to the max and I gonna utilise it fully!

And that's all for now~

2009-05-02T22:35:00.003+08:00

What a nice long weekend to slack... But I keep thinking that tml's already Monday, because i'm already accustomed to the fact that there're only 2 rest days a week!

Anyway, went to River Palace restaurant to celebrate my mum's dinner just now, damn full, and my apologies because no pics are taken whilst my hands were busy with the chopsticks. But here's a simple summary of food we had, mind you, it's hilarious.

11 servings of salmon sashimi!

2 servings of soon hock (some fried fish, super crispy!)

1 serving of sea bass

3 servings of desert each person

Seriously, my stomach is still full after this sumptous dinner, and this is because it's ala-carte buffet. >.<>

First time having so much fish in a single meal, does that make me swim better? :P

ps: damn happy because i'm finally given permission to get the CANON camera at home to use to take pics for blogging! hip hip hooray!!! I just did a little gig when my dad agreed! :)))

SMILEY!!!

A BIG THANKS for the concern of my great classmates when I was moody and emo on LAST Wed!!! I LOVE you peeps!!!

2009-04-30T00:08:00.002+08:00

And my heart still continues to ache tonight... But I really believe that things might work out and the skies will be blue again...Dear, am I really too unreasonable? I guess I was...But would you forgive me? I guess you wouldn't...I'm really sorry...

Dunno what am I thinking right now, my mind is definitely full of emotions and confusion, things are starting to suck more...I just wish time can pass faster and my friends' words wouldn't come true...

2009-04-27T22:03:00.003+08:00

Random picture taken during last week's break between lessons in the beloved T22614. dhrmp 2a01 knows why, because we have 5 hours of tutorial continuously in tt classroom..

Played basketball today and got sunburnt! Cheeks are of this chio redness now and the shoulders as well as my arms too.Rich in vitamin D~~~ :P

And that was what we did for the whole of our 3 hours break playing bball with Canaan, Yao Zhong, Kian Tat, Hester and Amanda occasionally, and not forgetting Hester's 2 friends... :D Really a great workout, was really tired and sleepy during blaw lecture though... :(

But one thing to be happy about is:

THE PEEPS COMMENTED THAT I CAN "SHE HEN ZUN" = I can shoot accurately! :))) wee~

Happiness is just derived from this little praises i get each day! Hah!

Anyway, I treated mum to Starbucks for lunch cum tea break! Delicious caramel frappuccino-my love! ;)

And yeah, just as we were about to finish eating the stuff, I remembered "Ahh!! I wanna take photos to blog!" -.-

yeah i know, my apologies, but i'm just tt blur... :P

The cinammon roll which seems to be the cheapest snack to choose from, but it's totally delicious! Sweet and not too dry, superb when it's served warm!

And here comes my mum's favourite, New York cheese cake! Cheesy and nice! :)))

As well as a white chocolate mocha, with whipped cream, it was damn cool to see the whipped cream on the hot coffee, but i failed to capture a shot of that... >.<

A little marketing @ NTUC and we're done for the day. :)))

2009-04-26T21:54:00.002+08:00

Weekend post~ Went all the way to Margaret Drive to have brunch on Sat, my elder bro treated us to chicken rice and coffee-my love! :)))

The next image might be a little disgusting....

IT IS A CHICKEN HEART! Got a shock when I saw it in the plate of chicken parts, it was the first time I see it, reminds me totally of bio lessons, the dissection of the lamb's heart and the liver. It's cool man! Miss sec 3/4 days~~~ :( My 4e2 ppl...

Anyway, I came to conclusion-since we measure our heart according to the size of our fist, so does the chicken. Except, it has no fists, so only its claws, that's why the heart is so small! Ok, lame! :P

Who says coffee in hawker centres are only made using stockings? My elder bro introduced this coffee with steamed milk , made from a really antique coffee machine right at the hawker centre. It's seriously good, even without sugar! :))) Slurps~

Shall try to take the picture of the coffee machine the next trip there.

The liquor I've been drinking this 2 nights, the four emus is Rose wine! Isn't it cool? It's made of roses instead of the usual ingredient-grapes. It's nice too! NTUC was having offer so I asked my dad to buy to try and woots! I got to drink a small cup of both wines. Oh yah, the other bottle of wine is supposed to be the ancient wine which is supposedly nourishing, tastes not bad! But I like four emus rose wine better! :p

Yeah, as expected, the smaller cup belongs to me while the bigger cups from IKEA are for my parents...And I didn't get to refill my cup at all! :((( Can't wait to be 18! And that's all for now! Looking forward to the basketball game tml! Hahas...Hopefully I'm not too dumb at basketball... :P